Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Everyone thinks I am exaggerating when I say I am going to flunk ps. But seriouly, I feel it deep in my bones that I am. When I sat down and looked through the questions, I looked for a long time before starting to write, deciding which question to do. It was horrible, I couldnt remember almost all my concepts and even for those which I could, I was not entirely sure if they were accurate. I slapped myself for not stuyding feminism, I had a feeling it would come out, but as usual, I didn't act on it. The thing about political science is that there are a lot of concepts that u have to be clear about, one can't just cram everything in in one day. Thats what happened to me, I guess. I read so many chapters without understanding the concepts that I just mixed everything up. While everybody around me was scribbling away furiously, I was erm leisurely writing at intervals. Suprisingly, despite my lack of preparation and being sure that I would not do well, I was quite cool about it. I guess this is what u would call resignation.....resignation to my fate. Though I am not sure my dad would see it the same way as I do. I have to think of a good speech to say to him, hmm, shall I act all teary-eyed and regretful or be matter-of -fact and confident and tell him that I am confident I would do better next sem. I know what he would say--> BULLSHIT and give me a huge lect...Sigh I am sure dreading that. Hopefully I will do so badly that I would have to retake it next semester. Does anyone knows if it would affect my cap score? But then again, it means going through the same stressful routine or worse as it would mean taking 6 modules next sem. Nervous 2Gosh, I hope it won't come to that. sigh, I shan't think about it anymore and block it out of my system until I get back the results.






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