I wish things were back to the way they were just before it all started
But whats done cannot be undone
Whats happened cannot be changed
I just have to accept it
Hard as it might be

But I guess it works both ways also
My fault I suppose
Was I trying to be coy
Definitely not, I am too transparent a person
to hide my feelings well

Whats good is that I no longer brood about it constantly
It doesnt make me feel that sad anymore
Though still somewhat...to a certain extent
Maybe the pain would dissipate after a while
Mostly I just wish that that awkardness would go away

I no longer know how to be myself
I am becoming quite adept at feigning
To be happy, to be cheerful
To keep that facade of joy
Though i am so messed up inside
And feeling so disillusioned



That was just a lousy attempt at poetry, not even poetry...just my random and fleeting thoughts. And I am not like that all the time..so please dun be alarmed... :)