I managed to wake up at 6.30am this morning for my early morning gym session. When the alarm rang, I just rolled out of bed automatically without any excuses. I know that a month earlier, this would have been quite impossible. I would have procrastinated and given myself 101 reasons why I should go tmr instead and promptly just go back to sleep. Nowadays, its no longer a choice, but a must, regardless of my bedtime. Just for the records, I slept at 1am last night. If this isnt discipline, I don't know what it is.

I wish the same discipline is present when it comes to food though.. 3 gym sessions a week(or at least 2) for the past 2months should have yielded a figure I have always wanted to achieve, the kind of flawless figure I have always admired on other females, like super flat stomach and slim and toned. But I don't see any change, apart from being more toned. I guess that kind of figure would only come about if I snack lesser and keep myself on a strict diet, which can never happen anyway. I am pretty satisfied with my figure. Seriously. I just wish that I have a smaller appetite and no sweet tooth. But my greatest fear is that if I stop my exercise regime, I would just balloon.

I think I have trouble controlling my food intake. Most people,for example,knows when to stop when they are full. I will just continue eating until I finish whatever there is. And I am always thinking about food,like what to eat for lunch, when lunch is 2 hours away. And I can never resist temptation, never say no to a slice of cake offered to me, chocolates in front of me etc, even though I can be very full. And I am very calorie conscious as well, which makes matters worse....sigh..guess there are people who eat to live and live to eat, and I belong in the second category...wish that I can be more 'normal, have a normal appetite and stop being so obsessive about all that stuff