I didnt go for camp today. I just wasnt in the mood, if I am not feeling rara-I saw no point in going. The morning shone brightly, but my mood was just very bleak. I actually stoned at my desk for an hour, debating whether I should go for the camp or not... felt incredibly tired and drained.. actually I was supposed to pack my room, but it was more throwing of stuff la..so my room actually still looks the same...hahah..but the point was probably me being at home instead of being out so often..at the end of the day, I reflected that it was a right choice that I made. I realized that I havent been around much,what with working and all. And spending quality time at home is much better than running about doing things that may be enjoyable, but is fleeting. And in anycase, I don't thing it would be that enjoyable in my present frame of mood..

I went to orchard library again and borrowed more books again, shall just spend the next few days reading before school starts, for want of anything better to do. And once school starts, reading would be a luxury. But I borrowed a book on media studies..hahah...trying to be hardworking, in view that i am taking 4 new media modules next semester. I also splurged on clinique skincare stuff cos I have been having breakouts lately,bad combination of late nights and lots of chocolates I think(though I dun really believe about heatiness and all that la). Anyway I felt better after splurging cos the service was very good, and it came with some free products as well if you spend above a certain amount, which I did...hahah...no time to feel regrets, I will just curb my spending the next few days,though I feel I deserve it, after working so hard for 3 months...

After dinner, listening to some music, this song by eric clapton- wonderful tonight, and its so heartrending, the way he sings it,though the lyrics might be simple...just make me feel like crying...hahah...

It’s late in the evening
She’s wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her make up
And brushes her long blonde hair
And then she asks me
Do I look alrightAnd I say yes, you look wonderful tonight

We go a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
That’s walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight

I feel wonderful
Because I see the love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don’t realize
How much I love you

It’s time to go home now
And I’ve got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
She helps me to bedAnd then I tell her
As I turn out the light
I say my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight

Today is such a weird day,such a melancholic sort of day....probably this song reminded me of how much I miss steph..2 more agonizng weeks to go...groan