Yay, I managed to get through the first week of school..It was harder than last sem. Each day was a struggle for me, though actually in actual fact, I only had two days of lessons this week, but oh boy, these two days are sure packed for me. It was an endurance test, to see how long I can last in lectures without falling asleep, switching off, daydreaming etc, or how much I understood of what was being thought.

One would have thought then that my free days were put to good use. Nope, I simply lazed around house, slacking....I feel really disgusted with myself at times, why do I lack energy for one so young. I read other ppl's blog and marvel at their seemingly endless activities while still coping with their school work and feel more than a tinge of envy for the lives they lead, if only mine were so....But am I too lazy to achieve what I want or simply because I cant be bothered. I am in the committee for bike quest and my job is supposed to call up sponsors, but yet I am sooo lazy that I don't even feel like calling them, though by sheer will, I have managed to call up some, but to not much avail. I feel like giving up, but I know I can't...the event is in two weeks away and so far, we havent found much substantial sponsors... And Diana and Ning asked me to be the matric fair IC and secretaty for arts bash 2 respectively. My first thoughts were, would it take up too much of my time, does it require a lot of enegery and work. It seems like these days I am shirking from activities that require me to be up and about. I wonder what happened to the girl who was so enthusiatic to try our everything and be part of everything. When did I become such a couch potato whose only goal in live is to eat and eat and enjoy life, not that I derive much pleasure from doing both nowadays. I am soo filled with self-disgust now.. I really hope that I snap out of this stupor soon, the lethargic spells that leave my brain so fuzzy and unmotivatedness.

Going to lectures shouldnt be such a chore... Life shouldnt revolve around food. I should set some firm goals and stick to it. I hope the day would come where I actually enjoy going to lectures and eat like a normal person. I feel so much better after writing it all out...

Today's psy lect was actually pretty interesting, and so was sociology-childhood and youth, for once, I actually paid attention and hey...I did not fall asleep. I have lunch with Kaetnians on a almost daily affair and it has gotten to the stage where we are all very comfortable around each other, something that I am glad about, there is nothing like friends to pull you through the difficult times in life. But that stupid shiang has been 'suaning' me the whole day, since the start of psy lect at 12 to when we all parted at 7 at city hall about my unusual appetite, my blurness, the fact that I spent so much more on my socie module than other ppl....etc...bet he derives a perverted sense of satisfaction when I give him my pissed-off- you-are-so- dead look. Ahh wel;, he can be pretty entertaining at times,so.....(hope he reads this)

Going off to bed now...been having late nights everyday. I am giving myself till end of this week to snap out of it and a new optimistic, energy bursting Tressa will emerge..