Sunday, October 31, 2004

Received a lecture from Dad yet again. Sometimes I feel that his expectations of me are too high and I can't be up to his standard. It started innocuously enough...We went for our usual Saturday day night dinner.This time was at Crystal Jade LaMian Xiao Long Bao and we were chatting about things. He was telling me about his golf tournaments and telling me the big names that he met, like Ng Eng Hen(I think). When I looked unimpressed, he asked if I knew who he was. I was like, yeah he is a minister. He pressed further, minister for what? I couldn't give a definite reply though I sort of remember he is the minister for manpower, but as I wasn't sure, I kept quiet. He then proceeded to rattle off a few names and I bowed my head in shame. He started to go on and on about the ignorance of youngsters today, or maybe just me, and he zeroed in on the fact that I take political science and yet know nothing. He further questioned me on what I want to major in and what I want to do as my career. He then proceeded to give me a prep talk...blah blah.. On the jouney home, I felt that Dad expected a lot of me, as any father would expect of their daughters, but I felt that I was only mediocre at best, I wanted to tell him so, but the words wouldn't come out. I suddenly realized that he was right, I did have very low expectations of myself, I didn't push myself hard enough. His words jolted me back into reality. Was I really happy getting B for my assignments or barely passing the exams? What can I do with just a BA degree without honours or anything? I had always dreamt of being a high-flying career woman, but can I,given my lack of ambitions. Time to wake up and face realities or maybe start working toards my goals..

1 comment:

Skye Bleu said...

heya.. zonghan here.. anyway, hmmm.. this is the usual thing to expect from pops these days..

"Was I really happy getting B for my assignments or barely passing the exams? What can I do with just a BA degree without honours or anything?"

here's one more harsh reality of life... an honours degree in BA(Hons) won't get u anywhere too! yupz.. that's right.. unless u seek a civil servant's job, in which u get an auto grade advancement IF YOU HAVE 2nd UPPER AND ABOVE.. that translates to CAP 4.0 after 4 yrs of studies in NUS.. well..

besides that, ur BA(Hons) ain't worth shit.. Your BA for that matter, qualifies u every job in the whole mkt, except the professional ones like LAW, DOCTORs, Engineers, Accountants, Scientists.. blah blah that's why many ppl slack around school.. hey! u get a BA with any score above 2.0.. so why bother so much? unless u want to get a pass with merit, which unfortunately, isn't really going to be much of a difference, u get a 3.2 and above.. that's why u see so many ppl slacking around, contented to get their Bs and Cs in school... sometimes i wonder, why so many of u Yr 1s out there work so hard for.. haha.. call me disillusioned..

And, yes.. u dun have to know ur Minister's names just because u take PS.. BLEH.. PS is more than just knowing your ministers.. haaha

ah well.. perhaps i said too much.. but.. it struck a chord in my heartstrings at least, that's why i wrote so much.. =)

take care tasty...