Stressed

Phew I am sooo super stressed. I have a 7 pages long south-east asian research paper to do which is due next week and I know nuts about the topic. In fact, I am pretty much clueless about the whole module. The readings are like super thick and the words extra small, so I haven't even gone about tackling it yet. And with the exams looming up, it makes it all so much worse. The same goes for my other 4 modules. Sad to say, I have been procrastinating a lot. Everytime I decide to study, either something crops up or nothing just go into my rusty-by-now brain. Sigh and who ever said uni life is easy and arts students have it easy, all a big bull s***t. Why do we study so much? Is it because if we don't, chances are that we would not find a good job....or is it because we truly want to learn more things, to broaden our horizons? I think for me it's the former....which is a BAD thing, because if this is the case, I would not get joy out of studying. I would merely go for classes, tutorials because it is my duty as a student to go and not because I truly want to. Right? I don't know....this is all so confusing.

Time flies and never wait for anyone, so I must treasure the times I get to study before going out into the society to work which will be more of a challenge and stress. That would also probably be the time where I would look back and lament that I did not make full use of my time in the university. So i must grasp the opportunity while I still can so that I would not have any regrets in the future. Okie, so starting for now, my resolution is to go for classes, enjoy the lessons and LISTEN instead of sitting there and stoning and day-dreaming which is what I always to now. Of course, that means working hard. My research paper beckons.....bye for now