Once again, its been a week since I last blogged. Full of excitement and happiness. Everything is so tangible, is it not? You can be happy one moment, and sad the other. When I am happy, I feel top of the world and ready to conquer everything, and basically just feel good. When I am in the blues, the world just seems so bleak and I just want to ignore eveything and everybody and escape into my own world. Luckily, I am happy most of the time and untroubled. It comes from being optimistic about things and a happy go lucky attitude and generally being easily satisfied with things. My catchphrase, among many others is 'its no big deal'. I am generally not concerned with nitty gritty things. In a way, that could be construed as bad because it means having low expectations of things. I have often fallen out, or rather, have disagreements with my dad because of this. He is quite a demanding person, while I am laidback(or bochap),thus when there is difference in attitudes, there is bound to be conflict,and conflicting views lead to disagreements. He would often scold me about little things, and flare up over very minor things, and often, I just can't see why he has to get so worked up. Most often, the cycles go like this, he would scold me for some things that I have done, I would just let him say whatever he wants, cos there is no point in arguing if he cannot see my view. He would give me the cold treatment, and I would just ignore him until he 'comes around'. I find it very hard to appease people who are angry or pacify them. Perhaps in a way, I am kind of scared of conflicts and generally avoid it. But hey, I do have my tempers too. You know what they say about dormant volcano's erruptions. They take a long time to errupt, and could be considered extinct, but when they do. Man, is it a sight to behold.

But anyway,I think this cold treatment stuff is bad cos its having an adverse effect on me. After all, if both my parents does that to me, I have to 'acclimitaze', right. But it is really not a good way of dealing with people. Coming back to dad, I have always been in awe of him, and maybe in a way afraid of him as he has always been the disciplinarian. I remember all the bruises and terror from when I was young. Of course, it has long changed since then, I am in a way closer to him than mum and he is my also my confidant, when I choose to share stuff. However, he is still very much quick tempered and autocratic. He orders me about and is always flaring up at me, which I both resents, but I have no choice since he is my dad. But I am just thinking that after getting that kind of treatment for so many years, I am not about to stand for that from anybody else...

Hah, I have just managed to write a whole long passage when all I wanted to blog about was some lighthearted stuff. Gee, I just spent about an hour on this when I have so many other things to do. Oh well, guess sometimes its good to reflect about things and be able to voice them out. But hey, must be careful of what I blog lest I get into trouble. The blog is not a private space(I never thought it was anyway), but I find the thought of getting into trouble over blogging just a little too extreme. And teachers actually have so much time and energy to read blogs and punish students for it.

Going for free haircut later, promo by cleo mag..heheh..no, nothing radical like the last time. And probably doing a little retail therapy. I do feel rich now, from my tuition money and some birthday angpoh money given in advance. And I do think I deserve a treat from working so hard..hahah..and also to buy myself a present mah...heheh