I am turning into a monster. A black faced scowling mean monster. I have project meeting later, the thought makes me just want to... Can I just do the whole damn thing by myself and just write my name and heck care the other inert members. I am normally not so difficult to work with, but I don't know why, they just get on my nerves...

And I wonder what happened to all my friends. Sometimes when I am alone in sch, I just feel too antisocial to call ppl up for lunch or smth. Is this the 'friendless' part of NUS ppl warned about, different modules, different ppl and you don't see your old friends anymore, but you know they are out there, and you are just not a part of it. But then again, I didnt make a conscious effort to keep in contact. So if I do feel left out, its my own fault and nobody else's.

I really should stop blogging, I am not making sense anymore, even to myself