Today, I bumped into my old-crush at holland v, that is, my secondary sch crush. I think it was quite fated because today instead of going to the bus stop I normally go to when I go home, I walked through Holland V instead to another bus-stop because I was in a walking mood. Was limping a bit due to blisters from my new slippers and walked past the bus stop and scanned through the ppl for familiar faces when I saw him, got quite a big shock as he was the last person I expected to see. He was, as short as ever(3cm shorter than me). And he is coming to NUS arts next sem..sigh. I was glad that I totally felt nothing anymore. It was a crush which lasted 2years which only ended when I when AC and saw clover(but that is another story). He was the first guy to kiss me(on the cheek that is) because of a birthday joke on a magical night in Prague and he was one of the nicest guy I knew. Did I mention he is a commando? Ok, I am over him, end of story. But hope it wouldnt be too awkward next time as I know he knows that I liked him, as did almost all my crushes, due to my lack of discretion....

I realize my mood swings are getting more violent..as in not the bashing people up kind, but the drastic kind, like I can be very happy one moment and depression another moment,though depression doesnt last long. Don't worry, I am not suicidal or anything... Just that my brain is in a perpetual state of confusion write now. An emotion that I have not felt for a long time is seeping into my heart....Its distracting me, a lot.... And I don't know what to think, and what to do.. It was supposed to be strictly platonic...what happened??????