Oh god..after one hour of staring at my psch textbook, I am still at the same page. What am I to do? Felt the sudden urge to blog again. I was reminded of the journey to school this morning and a conversation I inadvertently heard. So there I was, sitting in my corner reading my Sophie Kinsella when a guy suddenly struck up a conversation in cantonese with this auntie sitting next to me, apparently they know each other. This guy, I am stress fits every bill of the word nerdy, and i am sorry to say..l-o-s-e-r. As I tried very hard not to eavesdrop, almost every sentence the guy spoke had the word marry in it. I gathered he was still single, on the look-out for a girl and a total despo and well advancing into middle-age hood. I tried so hard not to roll my eyes and contain my sniggers . The woman was giving him some advice about getting girls. The conversation soon turned to NUS students, girls in particular, and pretty unflattering things as well. Were they totally oblivious to my presence? I put that down to them not knowing I can understand cantonese perfectly well. One sentence that she said had the deepest impact on me, "some ppl are in NUS not to study, but to play, to socialize." That really set me thinking, what am I doing in NUS. Am I some frivolous empty-headed person who's only aim is to enjoy life, or do I truly want to get an education..... When ppl ask me, what is my ambition, whats do we I want be next time and I go, I don't know... I feel so.....aimless. And when I see people who truly have passion in things and whom I have no doubt would go all the way to achieve their dream. How I wish I have but a small portion of their zest. I think I lack that fighting spirit in me. That fighting spirit which made so many rich and famous ppl where they are right now.
What to do with myself???? hrumppp
Deep in thoughts....
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
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