My revision was disrupted for 1 hour cause the circuit tripped, and subsequently kept tripping. Thus no lights, no air-conditioning. Couldnt even take a nap because of the coffee I had drunk. Just sat in the darkness, lost in my thoughts... Feeling quite stressed about marketing now...Damn...wasted 2 days..

My face is red, blotchy, itchy and has been since last night. I blame it on the lousy humid, hot weather.. I looks unsightly...arghh...cant face anyone...I keep wanting to scratch, but I desist because the more I scratch, the redder it would be and it might become worse.

At least today was a great day... I got my daily dosage, more than I bargained for... =)

After all the rumblings of the thunder, the gathering of the dark clouds, expecting a nice rainy,cool weather, it didnt rain after all, how anticlimatic... The day was so swelteringly hot that it would make the best tempered person cranky and irritable. I would go mad if I have to spend another such day at home.. holed up in my room, sitting in front of the fan blowing warm air, studying(or trying to). Might as well go to school and enjoy the air-conditioned comfort, and see other stressed-up souls. And feel more motivated to study. Not that I am stressed up, surprisingly, this must be one of the few exams I have slacked so much and not feel an iota of worry over the outcome at all...

8 more obnoxious, agonizing days to freedom

or maybe I am cranky because I didnt see my meanie beanie today

Wheeee!! Had such a great day today, hadnt enjoyed myself since.....ages...way before exam started. Yup, I am still in the midst of exams, but as the next paper is 5 days away, we decided we needed a lil' treat to get the brain juices flowing again. Today's theatres studies paper is quite alright, i think(my crapping skills came in very useful again), despite the fact that I only started studying yesterday night, and even then I was on the phone for an hour. Don't ask me what I did in the afternoon, I have no idea, but it wasnt studying for sure. Ha, and the little that I did study wasnt of much use at all, cos it went in and came out again, so I might as well have sat for the paper without studying...hhah.. During the exam, I even had time to day-dream for 15mins, and was fidgeting around impatiently during the last 15mins, couldnt wait to be free, at least temporarily.

We went fongseng for lunch again, where I had a nice mushroom prata with tehcinno, again. I realized the people were really super friendly, very nice and polite and smiley, prob caused I went in with a huge smile. Smiling is good, cos it makes people's day and when they treat you nicely, it makes you feel good too.

I watched The Interpreter, thought that it was quite a nice show, kept us in suspense and was quite gripping. Nicole Kidman is very easy on the eye too. If u ask me, I think she is the most beautiful hollywood actress. Tall, lithe, blond, fair, nice nose, nice eyes...sigh. Though, I didnt understand some parts of it, I enjoyed the movie alot, and the activities that followed after that, which includes walking around marina sq, giant hypermarket and esplandade bay. It was a super hot and humid day though, which took out some of the fun. And there were some kind of charity run taking place, thus the place was pretty crowded. Saw some toned and fit guys run past(can see and not touch rite? heh)and some geeky guys who looked like they would rather be somewhere else....err..walking past...tsktsk..

And after the fun day I have had...time to do what I have been putting off. To study for the 2nd last and the most dreaded paper-mkt1003.. Sigh...with 5 more days to go, should be able to finish in time rite? I hope so. Sigh...heeellpp!! I totally don't know anythin about it at all..wonder what I have been doing for the past 4 months, but yeah, thats just me...Guess I forgot all about last sem's resolution.. But resolutions are meant to be made and then broken, and then remade every year rite? Heh, maybe its just me.....

Today's paper was quite alright. I strolled into the exam hall at precisely 9 and had barely sat down when the the paper started. Well, I thought the paper was alright because I managed to crap alot, and when I crap alot, there is always the possibility that it is the right answer, thus I am not too worried. I am only worried when I leave alot of blanks, like my first disastrous paper..hah... I realize that I am developing a exam phobia, before exam, I would always have this queasy feeling in my guts and my heartbeat would accelerate. My stamina in exam is quite bad too, I can't last 2 hours without stopping for breathers. In fact, after the first hour, I would feel quite drained and be tempted to stop, but there is this internal stuggle within me not to give up, so I just push myself on. When I handed in my script, I noted that most people handed in two scripts, and I thought ruefully of my own miserable single script, but then again, I shant compare....

After the exam, after lunch, we went to an empty classroom to study again, except that I didnt get much studying done today cos I wasnt in the mood. But it was very enjoyable cos of all the snacks that we ate, the dirty jokes flowing around(literally and figuratively) which had me convulsing in laughter. There is nothing like laughter to keep the stress away yeah, so its now a very stress-free Teresa blogging now, who by way, still hasnt started revision for her next paper yet. Way to go....

Going off to mug now, hopefully...ciao...

I am reaally really super klutzy...was running up the escalator yesterday when I tripped and stumbled and kicked the jagged edge of the escalator HARD. And excruciating pain shot through me, but as there were people behind me, probably sniggering at this stupid idiot who couldnt even walk properly, I had to compose myself and walked on with err..dignity and tried to walk away fast so they couldnt see my face...I paiseh mah... Then when I looked down, blood was welling up at a rapid pace and I didnt have tissue paper on me..so had to wipe it off with my hands so that it wouldnt stain my slippers. When dad saw me, he actually told me off for wearing slippers instead of proper shoes...haiz..so much for a little tlc. And as the wound was on my big toe, and it was still bleeding, and I still didnt have tissue paper, I had to walk with my toes lifted away from the slippers back to the car....

And today, the wound kept opening cos I kept kicking against it... Revision for changing landscapes was...not very good cos I kept falling asleep and watching television. But I figured that all it needed was a lil bit of general knowledge and your own opinion to ace the it...at least thats what I hope...hahah.. Feeling quite non-cha-lant now...more worried for marketing actually, but as its next week, I shall worry about more pressing matters, which is tomorrow!!! 2 hrs of essay writing, pure torture...urghhh....

Pysch was sooo super shitty. MCQ was hard, fill in the blanks was horrendous, and I couldnt identify any of the concepts for short answer questions. I experienced panic when I suddenly couldnt remember anything at all when I was doing the fill-in the blanks and I just kept skipping the questions. So I just closed my eyes, did the deep breathing thing and prayed. My only consolation, everyone else thought it was a killer as well...But its over, no use brooding over it. But what irks me most is that what I studied didnt come out and the things I didnt manage to study came out... Sigh..its always like this, isn't it?....oh well... Next up, changing landscapes of singapore, an essay based exam. Shall recharge till after dinner before I hit the books again....


This is so going to be a stressful two weeks.

But here's something encouraging....

the exam shook my faith."You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely CALM." MATT 8:26

the exam left me hopeless in my own abilities..."but those who HOPE in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. " ISAIAH 40:31

reference: Derek's blog =)

I studied in school almost the whole day today, we found an empty classroom which has strangely not been 'discovered' by anyone else..and hope it continues to be so. I am feeling the stress bearing down upon me, paper is tmr at 1pm, I haven't finished studying. Nothing's new. But at least, in a way, I feel that I am better prepared than I ever was, but that has not stopped me from suddenly being down. Not even the dark choc m&ms that I polished off on the bus on the way home lifted my spirits. I gave the 'come slap me face' to anyone who dared give me the there is a 'no-eating sign on the bus' look. As if I cared, they can stare all they like.

I realize that I study best in the morning, just before lunch when my stomach is growling. According to my psych textbook, when we are hungry, we experience a state of heightened arousal- which is states of general alertness and nervous system activation(what were u thinking..tsktsk) and after eating, we would feel tranquil or even sleepy. Then in the evening, I would be distracted by food cravings. Thus izzy and I went to Fongseng to get food where I happily bought chips, chocs and more chocs. And I got the teh-cinno which is so super delicious that I was beaming on the way back. Food has that effect on me. I am an emotional eater, which is not good at all. Okie...all the psych terms coming out, shall spare you all...

And now...back to mugging....2 more weeks to go.. ....Before freedom...

At last, theatres studies is over, well, at least the practical half of it, there is still the written paper to go. After 2 weeks of super intensive rehearsals, it ended with a bang today, with gerald chew himself praising our play with a smile, and that guy never ever smiles. All credit goes to isabelle, our director who really put in all her efforts for the play and made us do the same as well. Before the perfomance, I had butterflies in my stomach and I was really really scared that I would burst out laughing and ruin everyone's performance as I did during the rehearsals. Thankfully, though I managed to keep myself in check and phew, it all went smoothly without a hitch. Now that its all over, it feels strange, its a load of the shoulders, but I would miss it as well, cos of the friendships built during this period.

Right now feeling pretty drained and studying was not productive at all..havent even completed 1 chapter of my pysch textbook even though I have been free since 8.... sigh.. But at least today was a great day. Tmr would be a mugging day, just hope I have the stamina to last the whole day..

I got my daily fix of the day
Have been getting it everyday
Perks me up without fail
Its amazing how happy I have been since u came into my life
No more mood swings
No more Dr Hyde
My daily dosage of joy and laughter
A little goes a long way
I know I shouddnt rely on it too much
Cos its addictive
And I'd prob get severe withdrawal syndroms
But who cares
I'm hooked

Good news for ppl mugging for exam out there. Accoringly to my formidable marketing tutor, there is no need to study 12 hours a day and sleep 5 hours a day during exam period. In fact, according to her, one needs only study 4 hours a day, in blocks of 2 hours, with 15mins break for every half an hour of study. This sounds like a real good deal for me, especially since I have very short attention span. There is no point forcing your brain to take in more than it can process and in the end, nothing is achieved. I have always been a firm believer of never depriving ourselves of our beauty sleep. Thus i have decided to try her method, but try adding another block of 2 hours to that, making it 6 hours of study a day, especially for someone who ahem hasnt done alot of studying.

I have been taking things very easy indeed, and I am stil not feeling the stress yet, which is good, I guess. I even had time to go to the supermarket, doing it in the name of my marketing module...hahah...had to check out the products like heinz, m &ms...and errr what else...or yah..doritos, lays of course..oh and speaking of m&ms, there is now dark chocolate ones, so cool!!! I love it..it comes with peanut ones as well.....hahah..oops my 15mins break is up...back to studying...

pic taken during our full dress rehearsal at black box...can spot me in the green uniform?hahah 

Argghh..help me, I always sit at my desk with the best of intentions to study. All set, with books and notes in front of me, and all my multi-coloured pens. Within 5 minutes, my mind would start to whirl away at an amazing pace. I force myself back, read a few more lines, and there it goes again. Thus this cycle goes on and on and on. And its so weird that I never do it any other times except when I sit down at my desk and start to study. This is driving me so mad.... Guess I have a super short attention span. I don't think I have ever managed to study for an hour nonstop without being distracted by other things and really absorb what I am reading. The only time I can would be if the exam is on the next day and I would be super stressed out and try to absorb everything in one sitting, which does not work at all, I should know very well. Anyone has any constuctive tips on how I can stop this problem, short of tying up my imaginations and locking it up. OK, that was a joke, and not a funny one. I am going mad.....heeeeeeellppppp!!!!

I have to work hard!!!! The only thing that is stopping me from achieving my goals is myself.

Exactly one more week to go.

Yeah, just had a msn convo with an old jc fren who read my blog and was eager to find out more. Thus I had to repeat the story again...blah blah blah... and she must be the 100th person?? Haha, nah, just kidding. The reaction of most was, wow(disbelief)!! you are attached, congratulations. The most extreme one from Mr ong was WTF, you are attached!!! And just for the statistics of the 'readership' of my blog, here goes

4/7 4/8 4/9 4/10 4/11 4/12 4/13
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34 32 22 31 59 38 31

Haha, and yup, 11th is the day after I blogged about youknowhat. Seriously, I don't know what to make of that, where did the extra 20 people come from. And I heard that apparently people has been going to my friendster page to check out further morsels of information-and were disappointed, cos I havent updated in eons. WOw, I didnt know I was so popular, or its because people are naturally nosy...hahah..i think it's the latter lah, I shan't be so bhb. But now that there are so many extra pairs of unknown eyes reading my blog, I feel somewhat restricted, like, what if i unwittingly say something that I shoudnt and offend ppl. Hmm, I shall heck it, after all, this is where i am free to express my personal thoughts, and if they don't like it, they can always stay away....hahah...and I am too nice to say offensive things anyway...ahem..

Oh yeah, and back to friends' reactions. There was another guy who told me he wanted to ask me out, but in view of the recent happenings, did not think it was appropriate. Thats coming from the guy who asked me out a few times last sem, than stopped for the next few months, then popped out again. Whats this man, if he wants to go after a girl, he should be more persistent, and not be so 'po po ma ma'. Haha, actually its my fault la, he kept wanting to ask me out to eat supper and I told him I don't do suppers(excluding chocs of course) and I didnt like to eat hawker food( I am a snob, so sue me) at night. No, I wasn't being mean, I really don't like to eat at night, except biscuits and the likes. I don't think I can go to bed feeling so gluttony and greasy. He stopped asking after a few tries.

The biggest bomb was that another friend told me that he liked me...-faints-.. I got quite a shock cos I never expected it, don't ask who, cos this time, I'm really not telling. He wished me all the best and said he was happy for me and all that. haiz, another lesson for guys, if you like a girl, tell her, don't wait till its too late. But then, I guess it wouldn't have made a difference if I had known, cos my heart was taken already.

I am a glutton, cos I can never get enough of seeing you everyday... Its been one of the best week of my life, and many more to come..

So you could give me wings to fly
And catch me if I fall
Or pull the stars down from the sky
So I could wish on them all
But I couldn't ask for more
'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

In your arms
I found a strength inside of me
And in your eyes
There's a light to guide me
I would be lost without you
And all that my heart could ever want
Has come true---- by Jim Brickman

Is it possible to always feel so happy
The way I am feeling now
I feel like the luckiest gal in the world
I wish this feeling would never end
Cos I am falling deeper and deeper

Whee, i just made a small dent out of my mountain of readings
Its little, but at least its a start
I am spurred on to greater heights by your words
Lets take this ride together
And I hope that the ride would never end
So sit back and relax
Cos this is one ride I will never forget

Good news do travel fast. By the end of yesterday, the whole world had heard the news and rushed down to my blog to verify for themselves, there was a record high number of people who visited my blog...hahah.. I am so amused. As soon as I logged in to MSN yestereday, I was bombarded with questions. Plus there were the people who kept giving me smirky grins throughout the day. But all in all, it was a great day. School ended early and I reached home around 4 plus. Went grocery shopping with mum and then went to the gym, figured that I wouldnt get any work done and I was so right. I will do my first revision of the day after I finish blogging. Way to go Teresa...sigh.. But I still feel super relaxed with none of the anxiety that I SHOULD be feeling..Ah well. Shall go make some nice aromatic coffee to keep me awake till at least 2am.

I can't seem to keep that smile off my face...

I am soo super tired and exhausted and brain dead. The theatres studies rehearsal was really draining...sigh... We met from 10am to about 6pm, though most of the time, I felt pretty useless cos I wasn't contributing much ideas. I got home around 7 plus to a cold dinner...haiz. And I just polished off a whole bar of dark chocolate, 100grams and all. Cos I was really hungry on the way home, and I bought the droste bittersweet chocolate pastilles that I always buy and was eating it on the way home, and before I knew it, I had already finished half of it. And I finished the rest after dinner as dessert. I blame it on the newspaper article that promoted the benefits of dark chocolate. Ever since I read that article, I have been buying dark chocolate daily, this is really putting a hole in my wallet...

Its been a great weekend. I finally had my craving for nydc baked pasta satisfied as I had dinner with brennan there on saturday. It is undoubtedly one of my favourite food and is way way way way better than the munchie monkey's baked pasta. I savoured every bite of it. I can gush on and on about it, but doubt anyone would be interested. Then between us, we polished off a Grandma goes nuts mudpie and a brownie with ice-cream. Thats what happens when dessert lovers meet up, how he manages to stay so thin really beats me. The brownie was really fantastic, warm, goey, just the way I like it and paired up with vanilla ice-cream, its simply orgasmic. I love NYDC, the music, the atmosphere, the food, and best of all, the dessert. Oh, the company was good too la(an afterthough...hehe). But seriously, brennan is the best. Agreed to have dinner with me on such short notice, let me have my way on where to eat and accompanied me hanging about till Dad came to pick me up at 10.45 after his dinner(which is why I was free on a sat)..sigh.. and his knowledge of chocs and desserts is only second to me...so.....hahah. After dinner, to kill time, we went to some O'brien Cafe to sit and chat after walking about aimlessly and I desperately needed a drink and to sit down.

On Sunday, my ts group met up at esplanade to rehearse for our play. It was quite a nice place to do it, cos it was so huge and relatively empty save some break-dancers and later on, some AA skater punks though it was pretty warm and stuffy. We stayed till 7.30pm and after that we went cafe cartel to eat. Sigh, I have been spending alot of money on food, time to rein myself in before I really expand horizontally. Though I love cartel and its free flow of bread, and the pork ribs.

Oh and ermm..I know most of you are going to throw rotten eggs at me when I say this, but I take back my words on my previous entry. Ahem, I am officially attached... hahah..shocked, surprised, speechless? So am I. I feel so weird, its going to take some getting used to, especially as its the first time for me...Who's the lucky guy? Hehe, its for me to know and for you all to find out. But I will reveal in time and anyway I am sure most of you would have guessed already...hahah... I feel like I am floating on air now. After going through all the heartbreak, it finally happens, I would say it is definitely worth the wait. So now, I am feeling extremely blissful...what a great weekend

Whoa...just came home from my first ever driving experience on the roads since I passed my test and my legs are still trembling slightly...hahah..having two drivers with more than 10 years of experience in the car who kept hollering advice didnt make things better. And of course the car that I drove was so powerful that the slightest depression of the accelerator sent the car surging forward, and it was heavier and bigger than my instructor's car. I drove us(mum and stepdad) for lunch at the Empire's cafe where we had a yummy lunch of teh tarik, crayfish horfun, crabmeat fried rice and popiah.

Driving a car famed for its 'safety' didnt make me feel safe driving it,hahah...probably because I was not used to handling such a powerful vehicle, but it felt good driving it, once I got over the initial nervousness. The silent purr of the engine, the smoothness of the drive and best of all, I did not have to keep changing gears. It felt good too, driving a volvo, but give me a BMW anytime man...pity they sold the car already....sigh. But I suppose it'd be some time before I would be allowed to drive the car without the supervision of either of them. Ah well, no hurry, I don't wanna get into any accidents anytime soon.

My eyes look and feel tiny and swollen, from studying, I hope. The eight hours of sleep I had last night(at long last) was filled with disturbing and vivid dreams. Normally I cannot remember my dreams after waking up, but this one seems to stay in my mind and I never have bad dreams, as far as I remember.... Haiz, a premonition?? I feel more dazed and tired than ever.

Exactly 2 weeks more to my psych paper.... Feeling numb

Wheeeeee!!!! I get to drive today....

Haiz..another wasted day.. I practically spent the night time doing nothing. At least the afternoon spent in the library wasnt too bad as just seeing everyone mugging frantically made me do the same as well. I feel so terrible....the horror of last semester is going to manifest itself again this semester, I cant just forsee another low capscore coming. Yeah yeah, capscores are not important, easy enough to say when you are not the one getting it. I can just imagine another lect from dad, see the disappointment on his face..see my own disappointment while I brush it aside as if its nothing important while it actually matters alot to me. Seeing everyone do so well.. makes me feel so stupid. I need someone to push me along, to motivate me, to give me strength when I am down. I feel so alone, fighting my own battle, against myself.

I am too bloody emotional for my own good...

I have been doing a lot of thinking again.
Thinking about my exams
Thinking about my friends' advices
Thinking about my life
I have to say I was pretty happy with things
Until all of them voiced their disapproval
I staunchly stuck to my stand
But a smidgeon of doubt came creeping in insidiously
Its exam time
I shouldnt be thinking about all these things
I shouldnt let what people say affect me
But I know they say it out of care and concern for me
They don't want me to get hurt
Well, I should know what I am doing, I hope
Its myself I am afraid of....

Oh and many people have been coming up to me and asking me if I am attached from my previous blog entries. Like seriously, everybody has been asking me that. So just to clarify,the answer is no, I AM NOT ATTACHED and won't be for quite some time to come. So stop shooting me knowing looks, it gets kind of annoying when everybody does that....

So I survived on 4 hours of sleep again today. I woke up feeling extremely disoriented and groggy. It wasn’t until I had my cup of coffee that I started to feel less stoned. Went down to school to rehearse for our ts play. It was alright once you start to feel less self conscious and really put myself into the spirit of things. Sociology tutorial was alright and for once, I paid attention, probably because we were presenting that topic, so I had an idea what the lecturer was talking about instead of being clueless.

The highlight of the day was meeting cindy, yumin and jul for dinner. Alas, our plans to go Holland village for dinner was foiled by the sudden downpour. So it was sayonara to NYDC, I felt so thwarted, hrumppp, I was really craving for their baked pasta and mudpie… So we decided to go to Munchie Monkey’s café which was sheltered all the way from central library. I had such a great time. It was great meeting up with everybody again and swapping gossips. It was great reminiscing about old days, being updated on each other’s life and cracking hilarious jokes, I laughed until my stomach ached. I feel so good being part of this group. We don’t have to meet up everyday, but I know that they will always be there for me of something happens. Did I mention that I luvvvv my friends? Especially since we are so close, I can be absolutely uninhibited with them.

And now its back to mugging and studying which I haven’t been doing. Oh yeah, good news for all you chocolate lovers out there. Today’s Mind your body had an article on chocolates. Apparently dark chocolates not only reduce blood pressure, it also boost the body’s ability to metabolise sugar from food and its also high in flavanoids. Thus I went grocery shopping today and bought chocolates, sometime which I have tried to abstain from in quite a long time(to me anyway) and especially during the stressful period of exam time, there is nothing like endorphins which are triggered by ingesting chocolate that would relieve the stress. Not that I need much anyway, I have been producing endorphins by the bulk everyday. *winks*

Its 4am...and I am still up... I am cross eyed from reading through the socie readings and summarizing them and then skimping them(compressing it). My brain is so drained of its juices that I have difficulty functioning normally. Reaction time is of course super duper slow... I am dead tired... So much for going gym tmr morning, think I would have difficulty crawling out of bed, much less crawling to the gym...another day..

Me and bianca 

Do I look super greedy with two desserts in front of me??  

I like this pic of me =), but why does shiang look so grumpy??? hehe 

The whole group... 

me and the bday girl...sisters forever!! 

Did I mention that I love rainy days, where the weather is so nice and cool. Just breathe in the crisp, fresh air which is so rejuvenating. Its on days like this that I feel so totally energetic and at my best. Even though it was pretty cold today and I was wearing a mini skirt and I didnt bring my jacket, and I was freezing my butt off, I still wish everyday could be like today.

It was like a totally great day right from the morning to the end, I feel so blissful...must be because of the weather...hehe...Met up with the group to discuss our theatres studies play...gosh, its in less than 3 weeks, and there are all the lines to memorize and all...stress,but with our great director-izzy and the help of everybody, I am sure we can finish preparing in time.

The weather was so nice today that I decided to walk home from Tiong Bahru plaza which is like a 20mins walk. To reach home, I had to cut through the hdb buildings and walk along a canal. I met with an interesting adventure along the way. Being in a rush to get home, I took a shortcut and walked along the wrong side of the canal which was supposedly closed. There must have been some barrier there which I just disregarded thinking that it would surely link to the other side. To my consternation, when I reached the end of the walkway, there was this imposing looking barricade blocking my way home-to my dinner. I considered the alternatives, which is to go back the way I came from(which is a very long walk), or to climb over the railings. It was not much of a choice, I decided on the latter. It was by the way, quite a high fence, and i had to do it with the utmost care because for one, I was wearing a skirt, and two, I am a klutz and any mistake on my part would have led to my downfall. It was no mean feat, but I ignored the stare of a few passerbys who must have thought i was mad and phew, I managed to climb over. Moral of the story, never take shortcuts, you never know where they lead to, it might have looked like it led somewhere, but things could be pretty deceptive, so just stick to the long way, at least you know thats the right way(figuratively speaking).

I have an awful confession...I did no studying during the weekends at all, was busy relaxing, that is, apart from the 2 chapters of changing landscape book I managed to read in between TV commercials. Saturday nite was spent watching television. Caught Miss Singapore Universe where Dad and I bitched about the girls, there were an awful lot of pretty plain looking girls, but then again, I shouldnt be so mean cos it takes a lot of courage to take part in the compeition and face condemnation from people. The girl who won has my full approval- Cheryl Tay, had my eyes on her right from the start, pretty, damn good figure, confident, and most importantly, can speak well, which is more than I can say for many of the girls, but then again, it could have been stage fright and being tongue tied(which I would know best). Oh yeah, did i mention that the third runner-up got to be kissed by Jon jonsson, this so totally mind-blowingly orgasmically hot model who looks like some viking *drool*. If I were one of the five contestants, I wouldn't have minded being 3rd runner-up so that I could have been kissed(read on the cheeks) by him..muahaha (IF). Oh and Dad got Ben& Jerries, what a treat. With flavours like butter pecan and chocolate fudge brownies, who can resist?

On Sunday, I went for chuch service and after that went macs with some of my new care group frens. Hmm, still didnt feel quite part of the group cos they were all very close among one another and I was still pretty 'new', but guess it would get better with them. The grand finale of the day was celebrating Jul's bday at marche. I shan't go into details, but suffice to say that it was excellent and I was a very satisfied girl after dinner ^-^ It was a great nite out and enjoyed myself alot, mainly due to the lame jokes flowing around and as usual, the volume of my laughter far exceeded many others. Wheee!! Looking forward to another dinner on wed(at nydc) with jul, yumin and cindy, my besties from JC...

And now, just had a cup of coffee to keep awake, have to do some socie reading summary and if I didnt have that cup, I would have just knocked out on my study table....

Was on a roll just now and decided to upload the pics that I had taken onto the computer. Had to do it by a rather roundabout way, sending the pics to my email via mms and then saving it to my com, and then uploading it.. But looking at the pics, its sooo worth it....hahah...i am such a narcissis..... Hope mum doesnt freak out at the phone bills for this month...it shouldnt cost too much, should it? hahah...

two peas in a pod 

smiling into space..... 

drrrr....nice pose...courtesy of izzy and my trusty phone 

same top...but diff colour 

trigger happy with my phone 

Argh...I have no idea why I cannot log into MSN messenger, this is so maddening. And it just occurred to me that I am definitely, incurably, unequivocally addicted to msn. The first thing I do do when I switch on my lappie is to start msn. And since my lappie is on my study table, the firs thing I do when I sit down is to switch on my lappie. And I just realized that it is extremely disruptive to my studying schedule because almost invariably, I will start chatting to someone, and before I know it, precious time that should have been put to better use(like studying) has been lost. But I can't stop myself from logging on, there is just this cheap thrill of being connected to the outside world though I am holed-up in my room. And you see people coming in with their quirky nicks which is pretty amusing especially when I am in serious need of entertainment when the textbook stuff gets boring....

I finally went for my socie lect in which I skipped for 2 consecutive weeks or so. Not that it made much difference as it was only 1hr, and when I was not trying to keep awake, I was talking to either izzy or derek. Was so tired that I managed to fall asleep on the bus. Went home for dinner as I had been MIAing since the quarrel as I felt that as mum had been ignoring me for the past 3 days, getting through dinner would be quite hard, with all the tension, thought I had better stay away until she cooled off. And finally she opened her mouth today, swear I could see a gold bar drop out...hahaha..Phew!! Finally everything is alright for me at last....

Late at night when all the world's sleeping
I stay up and think of you
I still can't believe that you came up to me
And said I love youI love you too

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's no where in the world I'd rather be
Then here in my room dreaming with you endlessly

Feeling happier than I have ever been before..wish I can stay in your arms forever.....