I had a normal, boring christmas day and boxing day. Tried to do some suntanning in my roof garden yesterday as the weather was so nice and sunny. No sooner had I settled down and was dozing off to lala land when a few drops of water worked me up. Damn!!! It was freaking raining, and it was so sunny just a few seconds ago. I waited for some time for the sun to come out from behind the dark clouds and for the rain to stop, but it didnt, the rain seemed to be getting heavier instead. So I went back to my room and no sooner had I done that when the sun came out again, brighter and more dazzling than before...And this ALWAYS happens when I want to tan. I feel sooo thwarted by the sun and at this rate, I don't think I will ever achieve that even, golden brown colour that I so covert on other girls.

Christmas dinner with dad was at home and consisted of turkey sausage that was sooo salty, cream of campbell soup, baked beans, and bread. A very 'romantic'dinner indeed, except that I had to do the washing up :-( He was very convinced that we would not find decent dining on christmas day without prior booking and the prices would be double that of normal days. Oh well, at least I got the Beyond Paradise perfume that I wanted, which is stike two off my xmas list.

Today was spent slacking, and it was really seriously slacking, watching TV and attempting to read my Time magazine. Dad kept asking me why I wasnt studying, but I couldnt find a suitable repartee and said that as it was christmas, I deserved to rest, he is under the impression that I study during the weekdays though.. The release of the results were today, but I was in no hurry to check, fearing the worst. My stomach was full of butterflies as I typed in my matric and pin number, hesitating on the ENTER button, prolonging the moment, and at last reluctantly clicking it. Alas, the results were as I expected, lousy. But I am incredibly relieved I scrapped through Political science and southeast asian studies. But very disapponted that I did badly for sociology which I expected to do better for. My best grade is for my chemistry gem which is so incredibly ironic, given that I am an arts student. I havent plucked up the courage to tell my parents yet. I can probably get pass my mom by telling her I did ok... But I can forsee another long and tedious lecture from Dad, about getting mediocre results in uni, about getting a career in life, about me being nothing as I would be overshadowed by tons of other graduates, after all, what is a ARTS DEGREE.... Wish I can be like an ostrich and hide my head in the sand and pretend that I can't see the predator and fool myself. But that is a cowardly way and the truth would come out sooner or later... Just have to face it bravely. I am a optimistic person and would not dwell on it too much, and will just hope for the best next sem.. Always remember...This too, shall pass...