I had a great sunday today, instead of the normal boring sundays lazing around at home with dad being a couch potato, but as Dad was away, I spent the day with yumin instead, shopping at Bugis. It was wonderful, the galore of christmas gifts and the christmas decorations and the festive atmosphere, but I didnt really fancy squeezing with zillions of people, it was so crowded everywhere. It was nice going out with yumin too as we both almost had the same taste in things and it was nice having a second opinion.

I left my house around 11 and got to raffles city for a quick walk around before walking to Bugis to meet yumin. Met her around 2 as she was late and we headed to Coffee Bean's for a coffee break as we were both tired from all the walking. The peppermint christmas latte was delicious, perfect for sipping while resting the tired legs and chatting with a good friend. We continued walking after that, from the numerous pushcarts, to clothes boutique to seiyu...It was a tiring but fruitful afternoon as we tried out clothes,asked for each other's opinions and tossed back clothes and bought the ones we wanted. I also managed to buy some christmas presents for people. I spent quite a lot of money, but for some reasons, it makes one happy and satisfied. Oh well, I am working now, can afford to splurge now and then, especially as I have been holding myself on a tight rein. But I suspect that the floodgates have been let open and I would be having a lot of shopping sprees this month, which is not good.

We were done at around 6 and I decided to head down to orchard to get some stuff while yumin went home. My legs were so tired that went I found a seat on the bus, I sank down into it gratefully and fished out a book to read. I was so absorbed that I was quite shocked when an angmoh carrying a struggling child(note, and not a baby) asked me if I could let up my seat. I didnt even think as I shot up and was quite happy to let up my seat to stand by a corner. It was a one-person seat and she sat down while she held her child in front of her, not on her lap, but still standing. While I was standing, I reflected that even though her request was more than polite, I didnt like the tone in which it was delivered, imperious, as if implying that I should have done so without her asking, that it was her right to sit. I wondered what would be her reaction if I refused, would she make a scene? I am probably reading too much into this, but I felt that a Singaporean wouldnt do such a thing, even elderly folks sometimes refused seats that were offered to them. What right does a young healthy woman who is perfectly capable of standing make such a demand(if she asked for the seat for her child, i wouldnt have minded, but damnit that was not the case), does she still think we are leaving in the colonial era? Or is it simply the fault of Singaporeans for bestowing on them royalty treatment, for catering to their every whims and fancies. Sadly, I am not one for challenging people unless I am super pissed off. I take things as they come, with a pinch of salt. I go along with the norms, I don't question why, I don't pick fights unless someone does with me. I simply go along with people. But I am no pushover, I simply like to keep my views to myself have and have less conflict. People who have ideas of their own and find it hard to conform are disliked by people as being to individualistic and aggresive. Am I making sense it, or just garbling nonsense, I am not sure myself. For both cases, there are pros and cons, guess its whether you want to be a doormat or a maverick, the two extreme ends....

It seems like I am thinking too much, but the holidays is a good time to think about the past, the present, the future. Of what I want to be, to recover my lost identity, to carve a niche of my own, right now, I am simply lost in the ocean of mediocrity, always blending in, never standing out.....

Dear me, I have forgotten about work tmr, Its going to be another long, boring week ahead. But oh well, had a fantastic weekend. What more can I ask?? Indeed, I have many more activities ahead of me, it'd be a veritable whirlwind....so I will grit my teeth and get on with it, and think of the lovely things I can do with the money earned...Yes, samsung E600c beckons.....