It's been little more than a month since I last posted, and time has just flown past. This semester is the busiest and most challenging ever, and I am starting to sound like a broken track record. I hardly see my friends and I hardly ever go out. Good news is that I have overcome the impossible, coming up with two brochures wasn't as challenging as I thought it would be. It was just pure frustration at times when the programme fails you. So coming up with a website in maybe four days should be achievable. (It had better be)

But I am glad because I have learnt so many new things this semester. I have always wanted to learnt Photosho during the holidays, but did not due to inertia. And now I know InDesign, a little of Illustrator and hopefully Dreamweaver(for the website to come). There is nothing like deadlines to push one to do stuff beyond what you think you can achieve.

Good thing is that it would all be over in two weeks. Bad thing is the new things to come, the Big Unknown. Being an 'S' type personality, I hate changes and love security. That explains why my daily breakfast of peanut butter sandwich has remained constant throughout the years, almost.

But well, I learnt that I shouldn't box myself up. The big word right now is to "think out of the box". I suspect I have always been an "in the box" person, but hopefully that can change. My self-confidence has taken a severe beating and is at an all-time low. Sometimes I just feel like I am not good at anything. Writing- sucks. Communications - sometimes words fail me, at important moments. Baking? I am just an amateur baker at best. Like my dad always tell me, I am a "half-filled bucket", in literal translation from the chinese phrase meaning not good in everything I do.

It scares me, to be mediore when I really want to be excellent. But this entry is not about self-pity or me whining. Its just a reflection of how I feel and maybe then can improve.

I guess this is a journey where I have to find myself.