Its the end of a uber busy week. Since school started, I have been so super busy that I did not even have time to blog. This is the only time I can really sit down and reflect on the past three weeks. Its been a stressful and trying period as well, of trying new things and facing challenges. For those who do not know, I have since quit Fosters at the first week of school after having a normal work week(3 days a week) plus school and facilitating. I recognized that I had to give something up, if not it would kill me and thus I quit. I miss the food and the cooks and the friends I made there, and I think it was a great experience which I would never regret despite some of the low days I had there.

The second week of school was spent preparing myself for training. I have moved up a step at High Achievers to become a trainer(in training) from being a facilitator. It's no mean feat and it requires lots of time and commitment and time spent overcoming nerves, especially because of my fear for public speaking. I am still not sure if I can do it, how I wish I can just speak as effortlessly as some of the other Trainers, its just seems to come so naturally to them. I guess it takes time and practise. I have done three trainings so far, early in the morning and far away in Tampines, and extremely boisterous kids, or rather youths. Not all three was smooth-sailing, the second one almost got me down, but the support I got from the people around me got me back up again, and the third training was much better. I am so thankful that I was given this chance and God for giving me the grace to carry me through.

One other very important person is Mb. It was a trying period for us as well, less time spent with each other, the stress that we both faced which led to short temperedness with each other. But he always gave in to me and just showed so much love and patience and encouraging me during my low times. There were just times I was wallowing in self pity and the memories of the beautiful past that I refused to let go and I just couldn't help comparing the present with the past. But I realize the present is so much more precious and the love more real and the bond we have much stronger because of the things we have gone through together. Its amazing how after almost 2 years, I still miss him if I don't see him for a day or two...hahah.

School workload seems to be heavier than last semester. But I think if you have a positive mindset , it would be so much easier to get through. This sem would be a great sem!