Now that exam is over, I feel so sian..hahah..how ironic is it. Before that, I was counting down to the days I would be rid of it, yet the very day it ends, I have nothing to do. The thought of holiday coming does not exactly fills me up with joy. Before that, there was at least an aim, to study for exam, but now, no aim no nothing, just drifting along. I suppose I would be working, but apart from that, there is nothing to look forward to at all..sigh... lets just hope its just a passing feeling, this feeling of lethargy and moodiness..

After the paper, me and steph headed down to orchard for lunch at the newly opened Food Republic. Its really an amazing place, with a rustic feel with the modernity of a food court and filled with so many things to tempt. After walking one round and looking at plates of food, I headed straight for the famous Hokkien Mee stall where there was quite a bit of queue. Though the glass panel, the chef can be seen at work and it was pretty fascinating to watch him cooking the noodles. It was delicious, filled with 'wok hei' which is a cantonese term used to describe food that is cooked in a well used cast iron wok over high heat with a deliciously smoky taste. It was moist and flaovorful. The prawns that came with it was big and fresh. Very satisfying lunch, I would definitely be back for more.

After that , we just walked around orchard and also to the library. Nothing better than to curl up on my bed with a good trashy novel(how oxymoronic) and with chips. I got my wish today..hahah...Prepped with Ruffles chips, a good book, I just flung myself down when I got home and refused to budge an inch. Thats what a slacker I am..

Oh, and I also got a belated birthday present from my dear cousin Cecilia who passed it to me when we were in orchard today. I swear my niece charlotte is getting cuter and cuter by the day. Guess what it was...

It was no less than a Yves Saint Laurent perfume called Baby Doll. Check out the packaging. All furry and sweet and PINK!!! Haha, I am really smitten by it. The bottle is so pretty. And there is a light shimmering effect when sprayed onto the skin. Check out the description I got from the net, must have some background knowledge of the fragrance I am using, rite? hahah

Baby Doll by YSL for Women Year Introduced: 1999 Scent Type: Floral- Fruity Top Notes: GrapeFruit, Red Current, Rhubarb Heart Notes: Rose, Freesia, Ginger, Cardamon, Cinnamom Base Notes: Pomegranate, Grenadine, Cedarwood, Peach

"Baby Doll steps out on the arm of Parisian couturier Yves Saint Laurent. A fresh floral concoction, Baby Doll is attired in playful shades of cotton-candy pink. The sweet, pink-tinted floral bouquet is youthful and carefree, perfect for springtime in Paris--wear Baby Doll with a cheerful attitude.

I am so happy, this perfume suits me right to a T..thank u so much Cecilia...hahah...u just made a girl very happy

Sometimes I think that my mother is beyong reasoning, beyond comprehension. We had a huge fight just now, over a negligible matter yet again. And I simply feel so drained and exhausted, I cant even concentrate on studying properly, cos I am so bothered by it, and filled with regrets too, lots of it. Yet again I failed to reign in my temper, so maybe thats my fault, but there is only so much verbal abuse a person can take. Somehow I felt the need to defend myself after having been wrongfully accused, but she just distorted everything I said. With all due respect, I tried to explain myself patiently, and even injected some humour into the exchange to lighten things up, and she just took it for insolence. The worst was when she asked me if that is the correct behavior of a Christian. That just struck me right through my heart. I really could have asked the same of her, but what for..

Oh, I am really so tired of all this. I am not absolving myself of blame..on the contrary, I am filled with guilt. For once, I am not dismissing the matter to the back of my head because I simply couldnt give a damn...

I found this verse from the bible 1 Peter 2:23: While being reviled, Jesus did not revile in return; while suffering, He uttered no threats, but kept entrusting Himself to Him who judges righteously. I just keep this in mind. There is no need to defend myself really, cos the truth is between me and God. Somehow after blogging this, I feel more at peace with myself. Its really good to have an outlet for frustrations sometimes.

Now, hopefully back to studying for my last paper tmr..I smell freedom soon.

After the long and tiring and stressful week, the weekend was extremely stress-free. To the point that I almost deceived myself into believing that exams are over. I have been in such a slack mode, suffice to say that there was not much studying done. I had a wonderful treat from dad yesterday night, I guess it was his way of rewarding me after a long week. Dinner(I get to choose) was at Fish and Co, I was craving badly for some unhealthy, deep fried stuff, and I got it..hahah..I chose the Fish & Chips without any hesitation. Dad chose the New york Fish&Chips, which was new on the menu, its like the original one, just with additional cheese stuffing. Aunt Aubrey had the baked salmon.

After our food came, apart from the swapping of food, silence reigned. We were all busy enjoying our food to talk much, especially me. I slowly savoured every mouthful of the lovely battered fish, deliciously light and crispy batter, with fresh and tender fish inside, with generous tartare sauce. It was total enjoyment for me. I had the buttered rice instead of the fries as I don't really fancy fries much, the rice is so much nicer, flavourful and fragrant. After trying Dad's NY fish and chips, I decided that the original one is still nicer. Cheese is undeniably nice(think cheese prata, pizza, cottage pie, quiche), but I just prefer the unadulterated flavour of the original fish and chips, plain and simple and nice. The baked salmon was a healthier alternative to all the fried stuff, complete with omega 3 and all that, but topped with a lovely mushroom cream sauce, I suspect its just as nice...hahah.

After dinner, Dad drove all the way to this little hideaway in Siglap called the Cheesecake Cafe. Guess you can tell from the name the specialty..hahah.. Dad and Aunt Aub discovered this place some time back, and dad was raving about their chocolate cheesecake, and I have been begging to try,so I finally got my wish...woohoo. As it was chilly, we sat outside. The place is so perfect for chilling out, and I guess it has already established quite a reputation cos there was non-stop flow of people. We had the chocolate cheesecake(of course) and a walnut cheesecake. I must say the walnut cheesecake needed more walnuts in it and lacked the creaminess of Bakerzin's one, but I found no faults with the chocolate cheesecake. It was bliss at first mouth. Rich and decadent, but not overly sweet. Its the stuff of every chocoholic and cheesecake lover's fantasy. After that, as I went inside to go to the toilet,I passed by the counter. Just a small digression, the place only has one unisex toilet,so yeah, queing for it can quite pretty unpleasant, especially if your bladder is full. Back to the display counter, i saw more wonderful stuff. There was blueberry cheesecake, Oreo cheesecake, Strawberry oreo cheesecake, rum and raisin cheesecake, very yummy looking peanut butter cheesecake, peach cheesecake...etc. Other offerings included chocolate truffle, tiramisu and chocolate banana cake.. oh man, temptation abounds in there. The interior of the restaurant is really lovely, dimmed lighting and filled with cosy couches. Really nice ambience, I can just forsee myself spending a lazy afternoon there chilling out...hahah..

The Cheesecake Cafe
685 East Coast Road
Singapore 459054
Tel: 64487725
Closed on Mon and Tues
Open:Wed - Thur : 4.30pm - 12am
Fri : 4.30pm - 12.30am
Sat : 3.30pm - 12.30am
Sun : 3.30pm - 12am

I have finally gotten through the week. Its been a very tough week, to say the least, especially the past two days, filled with stress and emotional breakdowns, but at least its over now. I still have one last paper next tues, and meanwhile, I've been slacking, reading harry potter books and all. Yesterday was the toughest day, the morning paper was alright, it was the evening paper that had me all tired out, and after that, I had to rush home to study for the next paper this morning. I stoned until 11pm before I started studying, and finally went to bed at 3am. I really couldnt think properly, with all the things that I have read, its like information overload, you dont know which one is important. And the paper this morning, I couldnt even remember certain definitions..sigh, at least its all over now. I really do wonder why people can write so much in the short span of 2hrs. I see everybody around me handing in two booklets, when I cant even finish one booklet.
















Throughout this period, the most memorable thing has to be studying in AS3 classroom with isabelle and derek. To Isabelle, thank you for hearing all my probs and being such a source of comfort when I am feeling down, even though you have your own problems to deal with as well. I really appreciate it. Its quite amazing that, we grew apart during the semester, but during exam time, we got closer again. To my 'twin', * big hugz*.


And also derek, who has been tolerating my nonsense, bullying and bodily noises, especially pre and post lunch time, its always good to have u around cos of your lameness and ability to crack hilarious jokes, though I still think u mustn't have such stereotypical view of gender eh? ;-) Always going to school so early to chope the classroom. Whenever I want to study in school, I can always be sure that you would be there.

Lets hope we keep this tradition of mugging in AS3 whenever exam is around the corner.

Now, I can finally have a few days of stressfree studying, after the supremely intense past 26 hours...

I am absolutely amazed that I am still up and still pretty alert, if stoned. There is also the tendency for the world to sway around a little when I stand up, but its perfectly understandable given that I have sat without moving for 3hours without moving my butt, trying to finish doing summary for readings for mass media and culture, the nightmare of all my modules. Its really seemingly endless....bleah...going to bed soon, don't think I can take it anymore, but I am amazed at how ppl can pull off all nighters for studying, cos I know I cant...zzzzz..stoned, incoherent, panda eyed...' occupational' hazzard of being a student

Why am I even bloggin this..hahah..guess I am just bored

From happiness to grief all in the span of one day
I don't know what to do
Or what to say
I feel so helpless at times
Each tear that drops from your face
Cuts right through my heart
All I can do is hold your hands
Hold you tight
Because when words fail me
You have my assurance that
I would always be here for you
Offering what little I have to offer

Today was my darling's birthday and we celebrated it for him in school. Yup, in and empty classroom at As3. It was a surprise celebration, though I am sure he had some inkling of what was going on as I was the one who told him to come to school to study. Study, we did. But there was also lots of fun and picture taking. I went to taka to buy a mini sized birthday cake, and managed to stow it in my bag without him being the least suspicious(thats why i like big bags..hah). His bday prezzie was the Apple Mighty Mouse. How mighty it actually is, I don't know, but I am glad he loved it

After lunch at the deck..it was cake cutting session. It was Raspberry nougatine cheesecake from Swissbake. They had a whole range of mini cakes and I had difficulty choosing as it all looked so yummy. It was kinda soft when it was cut, and kind of mis-shapened after being in my bag for so long, but it was still delicious, with a shortbread crust, chocolate sponge, followed by cheesecake and then a layer of raspberry mousse, topped with strawberries. There were only 5 of us, and we managed to finish it all up.

After that was merry photo taking session. Guess we were all stressed out by exams..pictures would be posted up later. We managed to study for 3hours before heading to his house for dinner.

It was really a lovely day which I thoroughly enjoyed..back to muggin now

I am suddenly stuck by the urge to blog. Exam is in 6 days, and suddenly I just feel so light hearted. It could be the godiva chocolate that I ate just, all the coffee that I drank(I have been drinking coffee like nobody's business). I just feel like jumping up and down like a little kid.

Went to Orchard lib to study today, with a nice cup of ice-blended coffee. I studied like 1hr there and spent 2 hrs walking about...hahah..Christimas is coming!! Everywhere you go, you see christmas decorations and all the christmas carols being played..

I love christmas....wheeee..cant wait for exams to be over

I think I caught some bug, cos I have been feeling sick the whole day and yesterday as well, the generally feeling of malaise. Legs aching, awful cramps, and whirling head, itchy throat and nose, what good timing. The aching legs was because I went running yesterday, after stopping for a couple of months. I covered 5.5 km in 35mins,including warm up and cool down. It was not alot la, but I guess I overdid it as I almost could not move after I stepped down from the treadmill, and probably also because I didnt do proper warm up...

Had dinner with dad where we went to eat at Lamian. I chose some beef stew Lamian, a deviation from my normal order of wanton Lamian, which I threw out almost half of the beef as it was all fats..eeks. At night, we went out for dessert with Aunt aubrey at Coffee club where we ordered a tiramisu mudpie which was delicious and a chocolate peppermint cake which was so- so. There werent much choice left as most of the cakes we wanted were sold out, rats! I also ordered a ice-mocha vanilla drink which was very delicious.

I spent the rest of the night watching television and the rest of today sleeping and trying to study without much success...sigh...I feel horrible..and also the familiar feeling of fear is creeping up on me again. I call it the exam bug.

I am freaking pissed now. Why? Very few things make me angry, and one of them is my mum. You know the feeling of being maligned? Thats the worst feeling of all, you know you are innocent, but the other person just won't believe you. And its over such a small, stupid thing.

We were coming home from lunch today, opened the door, and out shot my 2 dogs( I dun want to go into a long story about the temperaments of my dogs). I just made a offhand comment, that Joy(my westie) was quite paranoid cos everytime she sees me carrying my big bag, she would run away to hide. Mum, predictably, jumped to her defence. I started to say,"but do you...." I wasnt given a chance to finish my sentence before she jumped to the conclusion that I thought she didnt know what 'paranoid' meant, then she started saying that I looked down at her, that I thought her command of english is poor, blah blah blah, now that I am a university student, can look down at her....and she started ranting on and on...and proceeded to give me the silent treatment throughout the day, and I am sure for a long time to come..

I am like wtf, you didnt even give me a chance to hear me out before you jumped to your own conclusion. That wasnt what I meant at all. Does she listen? No!!!

I am trying so hard to be patient, to be a 'good' daughter. Its really very hard. How not to argue back?Swallow my pride. Yup, thats what I did. Hiding in my room for the rest of the day till dinner time which was such a strained affair. She had to ruin the day for me. Thanks alot..Sometimes you wonder why your own mother starts treating you like a stranger. Would there ever be a day we can really put aside out differences. I sincerely doubt so(incidentally HP is back),which could explain her behaviour, but thats simply no excuse.

Or maybe its just me...