I've posted so many unhappy post that I had better post something happy for a change. Today, I baked my first ever successful cranberry-almond biscotti which didn't crumble upon being sliced. I was quite alarmed at the stickiness of the dough and could hardly shape them into two logs. The dough was stickier than glue I reckon, and kept sticking onto my fingers such that everything was a big goey mess, so I just dumped it onto the pan and prayed that it would turn out alright. When it was done, and cooled for 10mins, I sliced the log into thinner slices to be baked again until dry, and the dough held up quite well, so my biscotti retained its shape..yayy. But it could also be because I chopped up the almonds instead of using them whole. Anyway 1 hour later, I had the whole kitchen smelling happenly. I was cleaning up the kitchen when my mother came back. I got a big scolding of course, whats new. She scolded me for wasting her electricity and water to bake for other people. Generous woman, my mother. But oh well, I love biscotti, especially when dunking them into hot coffee or milo.

I had a fantastic reunion dinner with my family yesterday. Everybody was gathered at my aunt's place, and she cooked up quite a feast. There was yu sheng, super huge jumbo prawns, mushrooms, sotong, fishcake, tau pok, fish etcera. But what was nicest was the company, everybody gathered around,chattering, kids running around the place. There was at 6 naughty kids and 2 babies there, they were a joy to watch, though they were also a handful. Makes you think twice about having your own kids next time, really. They were wrecking havoc in my cousins room, jumping on his bed, examining his stuff and banging on his keyboard. But it was a really good reunion, with all warmth and laugher spilling around.

Oh, and I simply must share about Da Paolo Gastronomia at Chip Bee Gardens. Its this gourmet shop selling many kinds of takeaway stuff: pizza, pasta, cakes, cookies, antipasti. For their cakes alone, there are so many different kinds that it is hard-pressed to make a choice. But I must simply recomment their flourless dark chocolate cake if you are a chocolate lover like me, it is so rich and sinful and fudgy and totally melt-in-the-mouth yummilicious. There is also the blackforest cheesecake that is very yummy without being overly rich. The tiramisu is also another dessert I would recommend, its is just simply divine. I want to try their Valronha chocolate cake soon.There is also the pizza which I have always wanted to try, but never got around to doing so. And when I did, it simply blew me away. At the price of $6, it is arguably steep for a slice of pizza. But..it is a huge slice, big enough for two not very hungry souls. I had the salmon and pesto pizza. The crust was crispy,neither too thick nor too thin to the point of floppiness and was firm enough for me to eat on the go without anything falling out. The proportion of the ingredients were all just right. The tanginess of the tomato base, the rich mozarella cheese, the basil and the salmon which lifted the flavour of the pizza. Oh man, this is one pizza that I would go back for more. Do go try it out if you are at Holland village and feeling hungry

If I had my way, this entry would be filled with lots of the eff word, but I shall exercise restrain since this is a public space. I am just fillling so very pissed-off right now. I don't know how many times I have been pissed off this week already. I have tried to be as understanding as I can, but there is a limit to how far I can go. I feel pretty fucked up right now. Things with my mum so bad. So many deadlines and assignments looming up soon. So many projects and endless project meetings. Feeling at a loss how to go about doing my assignments. So many things weighing me down. I would be glad to see the end of march. I just wish it is here sooner. The least you can do is really keep your comments to yourself if you don't have any words of comfort. Because condemnation is the last thing I need..

There's this emotional turmoil within me. I am tired of being depressed and listless. For the past 3 days, I have been feeling so weepy, and its more than just stress of work or even my mum. We have been having another cold war which I should be used to by now. I am selfish, prideful and stubborn i know, but I can't help the way I am..maybe sometimes its just nice to isolate myself and not talk to anyone, not feeling very sociable somehow, this fake happy mask I put on sometimes in front of friends or family, guess I am not very good at sharing my feelings,especially unhappy feelings. I wish I can escape from this world now, go to another world made up of chocolates and candies like in Charlie and the Chocolate factory.

On a brighter note, my computer is repaired and fully functioning now, but still kind of slow. I got a new N73, a brand new ipod video, but unfortunately no songs to put inside . And I got treated to dinner by HP to Aerin's at Raffles City yesterday which I have been dying to try for ages, but the prices are too steep for me to venture in without parental sponsors..heh. We shared a leek and potato soup($7) which was nice and creamy, and I had a Aerin's Tagliette($20), which is a creamy pasta dish with mushrooms, smoked salmon and some salmon roes. I loved its creamy without being overly rich texture and the generous amount of mushrooms inside..yummy. And I also had a punchless pina colada($6) which was a great thirst quncher. Unfortunately I didnt manage to take any pictures because I felt that HP would not like it..oh well. I would love to try their high tea one day, priced at $25 for 2 which consists of canapes, cakes, scones and tea/coffee.

And now, I still have two assignments due and a test next week..blah