1 more hour to seeing him
I suddenly feel more alert
Suddenly all previous lethargy and tiredness is gone
But time seems to be ticking by too slowly
I feel more alive
I check the clock every 5 mins
When I leave, there is lightness in my step
A bounce as I skip along
In anticipation of seeing him
When I finally see him
There is nothing but happiness in my heart

There is always this eagerness to see him
This anticipation
I feel like something is missing when he is not there
I hope its not just the first flush love
But something that will last forever
This special feeling
This special person

I had such a fantastic weekend. Went for the early church service which was great and what followed was just as great. We had lunch at Mac's at suntec before proceeding to Millenia walk to take shuttle bus to city hall. On the way, I was distracted by the Candy Empire where there was such a huge selection of chocolates, candies, cookies and stuff that it was so hard to choose cos I just wanted to get everything. Its like eye dazzling selection of the most delectable stuff. I know for sure everytime I walk in there, I would surely buy something and spend at least $10 which is just the bare min.

We walked to challenger where I got my much coveted for sims2 thanks to steph...I was soooo touched and happy hahah... There are many things I don't deserve and he is one of them. I feel like the world's luckiest gal...

After that, we went to steph's house for dinner where I met his brothers, though his parents were not in. I was master chef of the day....muahah..though I have to admit I don't have much experience in cooking other than baking. It was a simple fare of campbell minestrone soup, roasted potato wedges,toasted bread, and sausage and cheese omelette. But it was pretty good. My next venture would be pasta, cos I am quite partial to Italian food and its pretty easy to cook( i think). Steph did the washing up :) and he looked quite stressed doing so...hahah..it was so amusing watching up, but at least he is rather domesticated la...so proud of him.

Tomorrow is back to work, normally I would feel quite sian half at the thought, but after the great weekend, which sort of rejuvenated me, I feel like I can take on everything and anything.

Look forward to trying out my game tmr, too tired to do so today

I had such a fantastic weekend. Went for the early church service which was great and what followed was just as great. We had lunch at Mac's at suntec before proceeding to Millenia walk to take shuttle bus to city hall. On the way, I was distracted by the Candy Empire where there was such a huge selection of chocolates, candies, cookies and stuff that it was so hard to choose cos I just wanted to get everything. Its like eye dazzling selection of the most delectable stuff. I know for sure everytime I walk in there, I would surely buy something and spend at least $10 which is just the bare min.

We walked to challenger where I got my much coveted for sims2 thanks to steph...I was soooo touched and happy hahah... There are many things I don't deserve and he is one of them. I feel like the world's luckiest gal...

After that, we went to steph's house for dinner where I met his brothers, though his parents were not in. I was master chef of the day....muahah..though I have to admit I don't have much experience in cooking other than baking. It was a simple fare of campbell minestrone soup, roasted potato wedges,toasted bread, and sausage and cheese omelette. But it was pretty good. My next venture would be pasta, cos I am quite partial to Italian food and its pretty easy to cook( i think). Steph did the washing up :) and he looked quite stressed doing so...hahah..it was so amusing watching up, but at least he is rather domesticated la...so proud of him.

Tomorrow is back to work, normally I would feel quite sian half at the thought, but after the great weekend, which sort of rejuvenated me, I feel like I can take on everything and anything.

Look forward to trying out my game tmr, too tired to do so today

I went to orchard today, not for the shopping, but to go library, and man was it crowded. In fact, crowded is an understatement, cos I had to walk at a crawling pace, and there was no way I could squeeze through the crowd. I should have known better,to go orchard on the first saturday of the school hols and also the GSS. I shuddered when I looked into boutiques along Wisma Atria and took in the mad scenes.

Highlight of the day was that I finally purchased something, not at orchard, but at great world city, away from the human traffic. A pair of capri pants from OP as they were having 30% off storewide. In fact, I have been considering buying it since I saw it at PS during my lunch break. The sad thing is they no longer have the nice white one with pink rimmings in my size :( which i saw at ps that day but didnt buy. So I had to settle for a beige coloured one which is rather nice also, with a brown ribbon belt. Moral of the story is that good things are gone quite fast. Damnnnn, should have just bought it that day instead of being such a control freak. And imagine this, the pants that I bought was XS and it fitted quite well,albeit a little snug. I am so amazed cos I am not a very thin person and I was wondering how those stick thin like people would be able to find anything in their size....oh well....very happy with today's purchase :D

Ok, so the great Singapore sale officially started yesterday, though i wasnt exactly very looking forward to it. The thought of it didnt send a thrill tingling through me. If you think about it, its just another excuse to get people spending, plus there is always a sale going on anyway,the whole year round. I am getting quite sick of the sale *note, not shopping*. I still love shopping. But I hate squeezing in with zillions of people in their mad rush to get the items they want at the discounted price. I hate seeing signs of sale in a shop and seeing lots of people thronging around the place, where I would stand at the outside thinking, I am not going to squeeze in there.It is also the time when you see the worst of Singaporeans, frantically trying to find clothes their size, chucking unwanted items all around,without regards to the poor sales people who have to fold it back neatly again. There have also been cases of people fighting over items.....phew, kiasuism at its worst. When I shop, I prefer to do it at a leisurely pace, where it is not so crowded, where I don't need to queue up for ages for the changing room, where I don't feel like I am in a race, competing to see who gets the better deal, where I can take my time choosing the designs, or whether I really want to buy it.

Personally, I don't need anymore excuses to spent money, cos I already have alot. I even drew out a list of the items I want to get, then crossing out the items that I feel I don't really need, or listing it out in order of desirability. Yeah, I know I am mad, but if I don't do this, I have a feeling I will just buy anything that catches my fancy and end up with an even more diminished bank account. At the end of the day, I want to feel like I have spent the money on something useful, something that would last, something that would bring me a prolonged period of satisfaction *food doesnt apply* ;) and not something that I would feel very happy after purchasing it, but then chuck it in one corner and forget all about it. Thats one thing that sales do to people, more often than not, they get things that they don't really need, just because its cheap and it ends up being a white elephant.

Yeah, so I will dare to venture into any shop proclaiming great discounts and feel confident that I know I am in control....hey I havent bought anything yet(i mean since the sales started), isnt that saying something?

The supposedly scented belgian waffles *sniff sniff* 

Greedy Tressa...hohoho...having the time of my life 

Me and izzy 

No souffle *pouts* 

I am on chocolate high now. Back from Max brenner, though I was extremely disappointed that the chocolate souffle that I had been lusting over for a very long time was not available, the next batch would come in about 2 weeks time, I'd definitely be back again then, and the next time, I would call up to make sure that they have the souffle before going. Today, I was already sian half when the waitor told me that they was no souffle. For those ignorant ppl out there who dont know what souffle is, though I might have described it many times already. Its this warm chocolate cake which oozes out some heavenly melted warm chocolate(i think) when poked. It comes with vanilla ice cream, vanilla sauce and strawberry. And I say it again, hot chocolate cake and vanilla icecream really makes an orgasmic combination.

Anyway I went with Brennan and isabelle, who don't know each other,and I was like the middleman, trying to converse with both ppl, but they soon warmed up after a while,especially when everybody's fave topic-chocolate came up...hahah... I amazed isabelle with my knowledge of chocolates. Wish I can have a career in chocolates..haha..but I cant see any possibility, short of owning a chocolate restaurant or being a chef which is a big nono, cos I am not creative enough.

In the end, we settled for chocolate fondue and warm belgian waffles with icecream, which was pretty delicious. The highlight was the fondue, which came in pots of dark, milk and white chocolate and bananas, strawberries,marshmellow and butter bread to dip. There were also skewers which i was quite tempted to use to poke the waitor when he told me there was not souffle...ahah..ok, I will shutup about souffle already. We enjoyed ourselves immensely experimenting with the different dips. I was quite amused that izzy was so fascinated with the leftovers of the chocolate, though there wasnt much, only the white chocolate which wasnt very popular.

Very happy that I was able to catch up with both of them to chill out, relac and talk cock...hahah.. i meant talk choc. Seriously, I can go on waxing lyrical about chocolates the whole day. I was so high after the chocolates that I kept saying lame stuff..hahah. When we got there it was desserted, by the time we left, there was quite a queue outside. Wish I own a restaurant like max brenner...hahah...yah, building castles in the air..

Next up would be the chocolate buffet...wheeeeee...so looking forward to that, which would set me back quite alot, but I always believe in treating yourselve once in a while, there is also the souffle which I die die also must eat. Oh, and maxbrenner would also be underdoing a menu change in a month's time, so fans must look out for that, me included. So that would be about all, my whole entry about chocolates.

So glad this week is over soon, been quite a lousy week, except for tonite's highlight. Hope next week would be better...Results are coming out soon *ominous* i refuse to even think about it,until the 2nd.....

I woke up today with multiple aches in my arms,surely not from the very mild game of beach volleyball and stationary waterpolo yesterdat, but I guess it must be so. It hurts even to stretch out my arms. This is also due to the burning sensation in my by now very red back, which has now turned into an angry red colour. I even brought my aloe vera gel to my office to apply, not that it helped much. And the sun was very strong today as well, I was flinching away, wishing I could burrow somewhere dark as I was walking to my favourite lunchtime haunt-bugis. Surprisingly, I didnt do any shopping. Just bought kaya toast and scones and milk, and went to the food court and read my magazing till it was time to walk back. Very miserable life I lead these days.

The great singapore sale has officially started, but amazingly, I have felt no compulsion to shop nor buy things,though there are a great many things I want to buy. I am feeling sooo broke now, didnt realize I have been eating into my savings, cant wait for my salary to come in man. And next sem, I am definitely going to tuition at least one kid, surviving on $200 a month is simply not enough, I can spend just that amout on food lor. Speaking of food, I just watched coffee talk and hawker woks, I didnt know there are so much nice food at far east square. And I certainly didnt know they have horlicks dinosaur*faints*.. I WANNA TRY THAT, and teh tarik as well. I miss my Fongseng tehcinno. But I dun think fiona xie is a good host,to be bitchy,her vocab is quite limited, cos she uses the same old phrases and sounds to show her appreciation for the food, but oh well, she is gorgeous and well endowed,so who care rite...

I suddenly miss my friends alot. I thought the holidays would be a good time to catch up and spend more quality time together, but its during the hols that we see less of each other cos we are all buzy with our own activities. I feel so isolated from everybody. And I have to work, which leaves me only free at night and weekends. And weekends are, haiz, occupied. I feel like pulling out my hair sometimes, the dilemna I am in. And my life is like a routine. Morning, go work. Sometimes, if i am disciplined, I would wake up earlier to go to the gym. Lunchtime-almost inevitably raffles city or bugis. After work,head to city hall to take bus. Dinner at home, watch tv, bathe, blog,read my books, stone, chat online. Its only been less than 2 weeks and already I am complaining, there is still 2 long months to go...arghh, I should be enjoying life, enjoying lecture free,stress free,exam free life.

Things to do:

1.Go for salsa class
2. Watch movie(s)
3. Go choc buffet at fullerton
4. Go max brenner
5.Go zouk
6. many more, still pending

Just realized the top part of my back is all red, as is the top of my cheeks and my nose and my forehead. I am so going to look like a burnt lobster tmr. And I predict peeling despite having slathered on aloe vera gel and baby johnson moisturizer on it...ouch in advance.....

Me looking very red 

byee sentosa, cya again 

Me and cindy 

3 of us..me, cindy, yumin 

Nice and oiled and browned 

Yayyy!! I finally went to sentosa on a sunny day, cos the previous few times that I went,the weather was pretty sucky. It was supposed to be a class outing,but less than half turned out. Oh well, at least the ppl who mattered were there, very happy to see cindy and yumin and had crazy fun with them. And esp yumin, whom we kept laughing at, with the aunty gestures and speeches...hahah...

We met at harbourfront at around 11.30 and there were queues of ppl waiting for the bus to sentosa, thus we decided not to wait and shared a cab in. The sun was already blazing hot then and silosa beach was super packed so we went to palawan beach to tan, and we found a nice spot as well, sigh, without the hunks to look at though cos it was all bengs and lians and families there. We played beach volleyball for a little which was not very fun cos no one felt like running about and our ball kept flying to the group next to us consisting of tatooed bengs and I was the one who had to keep getting the ball back from them.

We went to another spot to tan, and then into the water to cool off. It was sooo packed everywhere, the water was pratically dense with all the suntanning oil,lotion and god knows what else...eecks, even 711 was very very packed. And went we went to bathe, the queue was very long as well. Thus we had some communal bathing thingy and bathed outside. Ouside as in outside the cubicle, but still within the female toilet. That part was ok cos we were in bikinis, but it was the changing into out clothes part which was quite tricky. My friend decided to heck it by saying,"aiya, what I have they also have, who would want to look,"and right next to us were a group of butches who were staring. Yeah...so, oh well, it was tricky, but I managed it without and major booboo..

Next up was dinner at pasta mania where steph came to join us. I had a pretty hilarious time eating and laughing. Really missed cindy and yumin alot and our old bantering which brought back pleasant memories of ac days....

And now, I am red all over again, and I did not even put sunblock on my face, but I am very happy that my ugly tanline is almost gone and my new tan is quite nice, probably after the redness subsides. Actually I am not a big fan of tanning, cant decided whether I want to be fair or tanned, hahah..But definitely wanna go sentosa again, preferably when its not so crowded and I can have the beach to myself,well,almost..It is so peaceful and therapeutic to hear the sounds of the waves.

Had a great day today, and tomorrow is back to work...sigh...sian half

Linda, yumin and I sitting in the tram 

Have I ever mentioned that I love working at NTUC income? No? Well, apart from the boring-ness of the job, which come to think of it, most deskbound jobs are, I love it. Apart from the super good pay, the slackness of the job(which suits me perfectly), the friendly colleagues,the close proximity to town, there is also always food in the office. For example, today,I was sent by my supervisor to go to another department to take a cake,an icecream cake that they could not finish, and it was a haagen-daz ice-cream cake no less...muahah. What kind of weirdos can't finish haagen daz ice-cream cakes, I ask you? But oh well, all the better for me. I mean us...So there I was, having perked up from my previous lethargic state, cutting and giving out the cakes and of course, I get special priviledges like strawberry..hehe..it was macademia nut flavour,one of my favourite, yummmmmmyy....

I am also drinking more coffee than I should, excuse being to keep me awake at work. Being the food snob that I am, I have my own coffee at work, turning up my nose at the Nescafe Instant which I feel gives a bitter aftertaste and doesnt have the aroma I like. Speaking of aromatic coffee, I miss boaters coffee. I know most ppl would be like,huh, si-me boaters. Go check out the website now www.boaters.co.uk, I love the hazelnut and the vanilla nut flavoured ones, but unfortuntately, I can't find them anywhere around nowadays. Other than my coffee, my drawer is also filled with biscuits and snacks and sweets to satiate my hunger when my stomach goes a-growling at around 11am and 4pm everyday...hahah, works like clockwork. I cant function when I am hungry, I can't tolerate the feeling of hunger. Thats why it completely baffles me that people can go for a whole morning and afternoon without eating.

Oh, and it just occured to me today, looking at the people in my office, that married women grow fatter. Its true, oh gosh. Last dec, when I worked there, there were quite a few of them who had just married, or were going to get married soon, and now within 5 months, after being presumably happily married,they have grown in size too, and let themselves go. And its particularly scary cos there was this colleage who was preparing for her wedding last dec, and everyday for lunch, she would just eat apples, thus she was pretty slim. And now, ba-boom, her girth has increased so much. I swear, I am never going to let myself go, even after marriage, even after giving birth. I know they say looks and sizes are not impt, err inner beauty is more impt blah blah blah, but I think its a whole lot of crap. Men, touch your heart and say you don't prefer women who have good figures.

Oh well, this is a long and highly debatable topic, I shall leave it for now....ciao

Just returned from Bugis from a very fruitful trip, thus feeling very happy now. There was actually quite limited time to shop, 40mins,which is a good thing, cos I would have bought more stuff. I got a super 'KT' pink shorts at Surfbay for only $9 and a turquoise blue top that says 'Lucky, sexy, happy', hohoho, doesnt that describe me well? ;-). I discovered so many more things I want to buy. Like a nice leather belt from billabong which costs $50 at least *faints*, but I really want to invest in a good belt, I only have a cheapo one which is going to spoil soon. An alternative is Esprit and I saw a very nice 100% leather belt(white or brown) for $40, but I have 20% discount on it, dear me, choices choices.

I wandered into this mickey mouse shop which sells clothes and accessories with mickey mouse designs and actually the clothes look hip and boho rather than childish. I also went into The faceshop and Missha, korean brands selling rather affordable skincare. They have this strawberry yohurt face mask and facial wash, I am so going to get that the next time I go Bugis..hahah. There also have a range of ice-cream body wash and lotion. ICE-CREAM??? Comes in yummilicious flavours too.

Let me see, I also want to get denim mini-skirt, jeans, bikinis,wallet...........etc...With my unlimited wants and limited resources, guess I have to plan carefully what I really need before buying, or I might find myself spending more than I earn.

Now,the only thing bugging me is arts camp. I am really sooo torn, I have looked forward to it for so long, but now, I don't know whether I should go. One reason is that I might be unable to take leave from work. Second reason is that it would be the 2nd camp I go to within the month and mom won't be happy about me being MIA for so long. Plus as my dear is going to be away for 6 weeks in July, I wanna spend more time with him in the last 2 weeks before he leaves..But everybody would kill me cos it was me who psycho-ed everybody to sign up in the first place..Arghh I hate this type of decisions..oh its so bizzare, just as I am typing this entry, someone from arts camp organizing com called me, but as I am at work, I told her to call back tonite...what should I do??? Go or not go...sigh..

I went to the gym after work today. It has become sort of a ritual, to go at least twice a week, if not I would start to feel incredibly guilty and convinced that I have grown fatter. But as usual, I would find thousand and one excuses not to go. Oh, but since I started working at Income, at least 5 people have come up to me and told me that I was thinner than the previous time I worked there. This made me happy indeed. Hah, must be due to the fact that my face is not as round. I used to lament that it used to look like a full moon. Ha, and the black trousers that I have not worn since the last time I worked has gotten quite loose where it used to be pretty snug around the butt.

Anyway, dunno why, for some reason, I suddenly thought of the souffle from Max brenner. I havent been there in ages, since we went to the one in Melbourne. Chocolate kakis- Jan, yumin, brennan, anyone? Adrian is too far away...hahah. The souffle, at the price of $12(or is it more), is pretty exorbitant. Actually, I have only eaten it twice la, but I have never forgotten the taste..mm.. The first was a treat by this geeky NTU business turned IT temp who was working at Income last year around this period, whom I thought was a bit goodlooking at time, I soon lost interest fast..haha. I really want to go again, but its quite hard to find people to go cos most people are unwilling to spend so much over chocolates. SO JANNN, remember our long-standing date!! Hahah... I am so greedy that I am already thinking of souffle, suckao, belgian waffles...

I need chocolates now...I am still in a not very good mood. Is that all there is to the hols. Being bored at work, then being bored at home. What happened to the fun??? Supposed to be gals nite out tmr, but jul's sick, so it would be postponed...sigh. Don't care, shall go out tmr, even if it means going out alone...sad existence I am leading..

Ohhhhh..I can't stand it anymore. I want to buy sims2, or rollercoaster tycoon2 or any other nice computer games, if not, I will die of boredom when I stay at home, esp when no ones seems to be on msn, at least when I am there. I must be the world's most indecisive person. On Sunday, steph and I walked around challenger. My eyes lighted up when I saw sims2, and dimmed when I saw the price tag. Then I saw roller coaster tycoon which was half its price and decided to get that. And thereafter decided that it was more worth it to buy sims 2 and it would be more fun as well. So I happily walked around holding my preciooooous before deciding at the crucial moment that I shouldnt be spending so much money on a silly game which I would get sick of pretty soon and wanted to use the money to buy some nice clothes and there was(is) a sale at Esprit GWC. In the end, I didnt even buy the clothes cos I was too tired to shop that day. Sigh!!! I want to splurge on myself, but I cant find anything to splurge on, and lately everytime I want to buy something, there is this little naggy voice in my head telling me not to, but it doesnt seem to do the same when I am buying food. If i can cut down the amount of money I spend on food, I would be rich.

I don't care, I have set my mind on buying sims2. Its just a matter of when. Hmm, shall buy it next month,cos i would have lots of time to play in july,when I stop work. Plus maybe, just maybe there would be discounts then, sch hol and all, who knows?? *keeping my fingers crossed*..hohoho

Bloggin while at work
Its a first
Maybe the first of many
I suddenly felt the compulsion to
Cos I havent updated in ages
And I was too tired and braindead yesterday to
Having a very bad day at work
Having extremely painful cramps
Which make me not want to do anything
And its super duper cold in the office today
I had an extremely packed and fun-filled weekend
I didnt go back to dad's place
I had 2 more bbqs
I met the brotherhood
I went to church
I spent quality time with him
I met the parent =)
And after the fun is over
The guilt sets in
Why are things so complicated
Sigh.........

Sometimes I feel like I have the world's most difficult parents, who are so determined to control my every move, what time I come home, where I go, who I hang out with. I know I have always said this, but I feel like I have no freedom at all.. I AM 20 ALREADY, i feel like shouting to my parents. But I restrain myself, cos its not good to shout at your parents and they would only go like whats the big deal being 20. I look at other ppl's parents and wonder why they don't mind letting their kids staying out late when mine would jump the roof or smth. I came home at 12.15 last nite, mum was already asleep, but one cant really sneak into the house sneakily in the middle of the night when there is this alarm system installed in my house that emmits a deafening beep, esp in the middle of the night, everytime the door is opened. This morning, I had a spanish inquisition from my mum. Why did u stay out so late, what time did you come home...etc.. The tone was not good, and the morning got off to a bumpy start, especially as I was feeling very defensive. After all, how often do I go home so latel. Scatch that, how often do I even go out at night. But after that, when she cooled down, and I cooled down, I had a talk with her, on my own initiative. Cos I was sick of the arguments that we would inevitably have everytime I comes home late, or go out everyday consecutively for maybe 3 days. Things like, you are so self-centered, you treat the house like a hotel would come out.... We had a nice long chat and yeah, the air was cleared, at least temporarily...and I hope it lasts, the truce that we have.

Oh yahh..and the 6th installment of the harry potter series would be out in July. Oh my gosh, I can hardly wait!!!!! I have all 5 of the previous series and each have been read through at least 5 times..hahah.. and I got the 5th book rite on the day it came out, though it was very pricey. But I love the book. I hope the next one would be as fat and thick and juicy..hahah...But I would finish it in days. Its amazing, i finished the 5th book in less than 2 days cos I was totally glued to it. Thats how much I love reading, especially from my fave authors...wheeeee

First day at work was pretty relaxing. As I had predicted, almost everyone who walked by me did a double-take and said,"you are back again," and proceeded to make small talks with me. I was a bit embarrassed by the attention I was getting and sat silently at my desks, occasionally lapsing into day-dreams. Its understandable as the work is like super easy and doesnt require much thinking. I walked to Bugis for lunch and had had a great lunch of my favourite scones, hahah..I really never get sick of it. There were many new additions to Bugis, that shows how long I havent been there. All the pushcarts and the new food stalls..Wheee..shall go back again tmr..hahah.. planning to get new earrings, saw a lot today but didnt have enough time to shop, after all, working back and fro from my office to bugis takes up half of my lunchtime already, and since its the first day, I wanted to be 'guai' and all, but that would soon change, heee. Remember the good old days when Adrian and I would sneak out 10 mins before lunchtime and come back 10mins late.

Isnt it ironic how much I wished exam was over so that I could go enjoy life, yet I don't feel like I am enjoying life much. But I am looking at the bright side, that I work to earn money to treat myself to the finer things in life, hows that. Shopping and more shopping, there are so many things I wanna buy that the list is endless...hahah.

And I am still at my wits end for what I wanna major in and tomorrow is the deadline. I am thinking of a shared major in Socie and ICM, or lit and ICM, or psych..After all, what are the chances of doing an honours, looking at my cap score for last sem and the predicted score for this sem. Arghh, this is so killing me. Anyone has any constructive advice to offer? Please email me....THANKEW.

I really miss my MB alot. Wonder how am I going to get through 6 weeks of not seeing him in july..its only been 1 day...sigh

woohooo!! Back from chalet with the kaetna folks after a very enjoyable 3 days. It was at costa sands and though there were rather few people, our neighbours consisted on Bengs who took joy in blasting their music at top volume, and many many cockroaches aka xiao qiang scuttering around at night, freaking out everybody, even the guys. Apart from that,it was very nice.

Feeling quite tired now cos we didnt really sleep well at the chalet and I kept waking up at hourly intervals. This chalet was quite a tame one considering that the rain spoilt out plans and we had to stay indoor the whole day yesterday, and eat leftover bbq stuff from the night before,we just set up a mini bbq pitt over a aluminium tray but the food still turned out quite palatable. We played cards, told many many lame jokes and played some scary ps2 game with game effects similiar to that of The Ring, ok, actually derek played and the rest of us just watched and screamt cos the ghosts were really very eerie. Though we didnt actually do much this time round, as compared to the previous chalet, we actually spent more time bonding which was more meaningful.

And after all the fun is over, I am gonna start work TOMORROW. Sigh, that doesnt leave me with much time to enjoy my much deserved break,and I am going back to NTUC Income again, that is 2 super boring months there. Oh well, beggers cant be choosers and there were so many applicants signing up for the job when I went down for the interview today that I count myself super lucky that I got it without much hassle. But the working contract is until 11th jul which I hope to extend, if not I would spend the rest of july 'juo-bo-ing'.

So not looking forward to tmr. But kind of looking forward to my lunch hour activities though, which includes shopping at Bugis, raffles city, and occassionally Plaza sing. I can forsee many blisters coming up from all the walking around in heels, but thats my only reprieve from the boredom, plus lonely lunches(though I dun really mind) unless some kind souls don't mind dropping by to be my lunch kaki..Heh

Now that exams are over, and worries are over. Think again, there are other worries coming along. Sigh. I have to join the circus soon, to master the art of juggling. Lame jokes aside, I do have to learn how to juggle my time between my priorities. I don't have normal parents who let my go out as and when I please. I am not like normal people who have their weekends free. I have cranky parents who seems to be happy only when I stay home the whole day. I have spent the last 19 years of my life giving in to them, and I wonder how long more to go. Its so incredibly hard to please everyone, and unfortunately, I think I am one who tries to please ppl which is not good. Maybe I am thinking too much, maybe I should just go with the flow, please myself and to heck with the rest. but I cant do that with a clear conscience. Sigh..I hope it all gets sorted out soon, its going to be hell on me trying to please everyone and manage to juggle well between mom, dad, my many groups of frens, work(if i can one), camps and all...

hahah.yeah, i look weird and my hair is all sticking out(au naturel). This was taken on the mrt where I felt super weird taking a self-portrait, with a loud clicking sound, which attracted stares...

EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!! FINALLY.. BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY TO COME

After the paper, I started jumping around like a little kid. People were staring,but who cares..I am finally liberated. Life never felt so good. The paper was alright la, but I don't really care now. Its all over and done with.

I am super tired now, so I won't go into much details of my first night of freedom. I went for some free makeover, courtesy of cleo magazine. Thought I looked super different and so much more mature. Needless to say, I felt super uncomfortable with so much gunk on my face, and when the person was curling my eyelash, she accidentally clamped on my lids as well..Yeah, ouch. And tears just started welling up, in one eye, guess it was a reflex reaction.

After that was the much anticipated stand up comedy It Takes Two by Hossan Leong and Selena Tan with derek and steph. And I enjoyed every minute of the 11/2 hr show which was filled with wit and humour with dirty jokes, it was supremely entertaining. After the show, I actually walked home from queen vic concert hall. I can't believe it myself, but I actually did it. It was quite a nice and very long walk, but the weather was nice, the scenery was nice, and the company was nice. We walked through boat quay, which was packed with people and very happening. I still can't get over how nice the decor of the restaurants were, so nice..it was so cosy and the ambience was very nice..but it probably cost a hand and a leg to eat there. Must drag my old joe there one of these days..hahah..Then walked past robertson quay with the posh dining and less randy crowd. Then we walked past zouk. Did i mention I want to go clubbing...Wheeeeee.. Lychee martini, butterscotch schnapp, vanilla vodka.. Come on girls, lets go rock the house....hahaha

After one very long day, I feel very shacked. Off to bed now..floating off into a pleasant dream... of u

I am sooooooooooooo bored.. Bored of studying.. This must be the longest exam of my life..arghh..thank goodness it ends tomorrow. I am bored of the endless cycle of studying, daydreaming, studying, staring out of the window, studying, going in search of food, studying, fiddling with my hair...... u get the drift, and i finished reading a novel that I borrowed from the lib on tues, I am truly amazed with myself..hahah

Mom cooked beef rendang today, a whole potful of it, not for me obviously, but for her cell group members, but I got to eat some...and it was delicious, not surprisingly, considering the amount of artery clogging coconut milk that was in it. Her first attempt but great nontheless. Wish I can cook like her..hahah...but I think that if i cook, it would be all the western dishes, but hey, i can cook fried rice. But my number one interest is still in baking. Wish I can be a chocolatier or some food critic thingy, but thats so impossible.... haha..and talking about chocolate, my choc craving is acting up again, been days since I ate chocs, i think...

Less than 24 hours before its all over...so looking forward to tmr

You are a XSIT--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Hellcat.Yowza, you are fiery to be with. You're dynamic and volatile and a living roller coaster. You're also very attractive and immaculately groomed, so your target sex gets drawn in like a moth. You love the attention and never get tired of it. At a party you command attention, but you're a lightweight with alcohol and if you drink too much there can be trouble. Like an XSYT, you tend to over-analyze things, so the slightest comment or action from your significant other can send you into a tailspin. Conflict with you can be either very productive or very dangerous. You are incapable of lying -- you have no guile -- and if your partner can't handle the truth, that's his/her problem, not yours. You are explosive when you're upset, but when the smoke clears you are right back on track with no ill will. This is a highly effective way to resolve issues and keep them from brewing, but this can stun and hurt a partner with a more laid-back approach. You aren't angry later, but s/he might be. Make sure when you've gotten your satisfaction that your partner is satisfied as well! You would never cheat. But combine your hot-blooded style with the fact that your partner is *attracted* to that style, and you've got a recipe for being cheated on. If you pair up with an X_YG (and that's not unlikely) you may get caught in his/her cycle of cheating. Make sure your partner feels appreciated and loved to balance out the fire of your approach to conflict. If you're female, you're kind of like Evita or Teresa Heinz Kerry. I can't think of any famous men like this.Of the 223993 people who have taken this quiz, 5 % are this type.

Goodness..some of the things are really quite true..hehe..And Teresa Heinz Kerry is my namesake as well...hahah..so cool..But I certainly can hold my alcohol well without getting into trouble. And I seldom explode, prefer to keep things within me. But hmm, hellcat... i like...hahah

Try the quiz at http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Relationship&page=1

So many nights I sit by my window
Waiting for someone to sing me his song
So many dreams I kept deep inside me
Alone in the dark but now
You've come along

You light up my life
You give me hope
To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song

Rollin' at sea, adrift on the water
Could it be finally I'm turning for home?
Finally, a chance to say hey, I love You
Never again to be all alone

You light up my life
You give me hope
To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song
It can't be wrong
When it feels so right
'Cause You You light up my life

the crazy things we do 

Haha..this is what we get into when we study in school, no work done..but it was fun. It was when we were posing for pics, and derek's stomach gave an almighty rumble,esp just after lunch and it was magnified in the quietness of the room, thus we were so tickled by it. There were more pics too, but I think derek and isabelle would kill me if I posted them, so..yeah.. Anyway it was so fun, laughed till my stomach hurt, and was just short of rolling about on the floor. With will hung dance, funny pics, hilarious jokes and torturing derek with our conversation, this is the best way to destress-2 days before the exam. And I don't gasp when I give me belly loud laughter which can be heard 10 miles away.. I don't..its just my unique way of expressing my merriment thats all..right!!

OOoh..and I tried kaya toast and teh at Coffee & Toast, this new 'cafe' which just opened at citylink mall.. It was delicious, loved biting into the crispy bread with rich butter filling and there were others like peanut butter honey as well..shall try that next time. It actually tasted like Yakun's one, and ironically, yakun is opening at the basement of raffles city, less than 100m from each other. Competition is sure heating up..whatever it is, all the better for consumers like us cos to attract customers, they might have more promotions..hahah..marketing technique yah?

Anyway I have been drinking too much coffee for my own good. One in the morning and one at night..excuse is that I need to keep awake while studying, but I think its mostly psychological need.. Ah well...i promise I will cut down after exam, i need something to look forward to while studying and there is nothing like my home-made mocha coffee to do that...

I have the best boyfriend in the world... He came all the way from clementi to surprise me with my fave tub of ben&jerrys ice cream, knowing I was quite down. So unbelievably touched and speechless that I didnt know what to say. You have just put the light back into my life...
I loved the ice-cream, it was delicious and sweet, but it was the sweetness of his actions that touched me to the core... My meanie beanie is the best!!!!!!!!!!

I have a confession... I don't know where to start for socie. A pile of notes(incomplete and strewn all over the place) and readings and supplementary readings and summaries...arghh...But at least there is a choice of choosing to write 2 out of 4 essays unlike marketing where it was a compulsory 4 questions... any kind souls out there who want to help me??? Derek??? Izzy? Jul???? hahah..

After dinner, watched TV, surfed, read blogs, blogged, napped and now its studying time..way to go, slackertoad..

I had my marketing paper today
It was the longest 2 hrs of my life
While ppl around me were scribling away frantically for their dear life
Lest they could not finish the paper
I was in agony...cos I didnt know what to write
I wasnt in a very crappy mood
Thus I didnt manage to crap alot
Just wished that time would past faster, so that I could get the hell out of there
To go lick my wounds in private
At my lowest point in time
I was alone, just like I always have
On the bus to orchard
I wished the woman next to me would stop looking at me while I blew my nose
Couldnt she tell I wanted some privacy
But I like the anonymity of orchard
And joy!!! I bought two T's from fox
And got mom's present at M&S
Speaking of m&s, they have this choc hazelnut body scrub which smells like the real thing can
I got mom the white choc body mousse which smelled delectable too
And i resisted strong temptation to buy my favourite choc vienness biscuit
But it was a mistake to go orchard while I was freaking hungry
Cos it also meant i was on a food rampage
But going gym later, so couldnt care less
And after blogging, I feel better already
Not so bothered about mkting
Though it wasnt all about that
After all, I have always had a devil may care attitude about exams
One more paper to go on fri
I am spent
I want to give up
But i cant screw it up again
Unless I wanna take 7 mods next sem
But think I will wait until after dinner
To get back to my books
Freedom is here, I can smell it already
One more lap to go
Before I touch the finishing line
Maybe I will study in sch tmr
Beats staying at home
Mom's bday tmr, but she is having lunch with her frens
And dinner with other frens
Happening life she's got
Compared to poor old boring me

I havent blogged in ages, by my standards at least
I used to churn out and entry at least once daily
Just didnt feel in the mood
Entries would be shitty and boring
AndI didnt want to subject readers to that
Cos life has been boring, though I shan't say shitty
But today, it's such a beautiful morning
With softy fluffy white clouds in the azure blue sky
A sure sign that today's gonna be another hot hot day
That I suddenly felt like blogging
Though it's still mindless rambling
Just type whatever comes to my mind
Never mind that I will be sent to the slaughter house tmr
Cos I have to face the fact that I am never going to finish studying
And can't remember what I have studied either
But I am beyond caring
Its just a stupid paper anyway, why shd I let it affect me
My motto-take things as they come, and don't worry beyond that
And be happy
Yup, so I am even planning to go shopping after the paper tmr
Though I have another one on fri
Shopping for mom's present cos its her bday on wed+mother's day of course
And mom keeps asking the dreaded question
So when am i going to meet your bf
I just digress and say soon
Remember the days she used to scare off any guys who had the temerity to call my house
She would demand for their names and reason for calling
And they never called twice
Hah, its been a long time since then
Just hope she doesnt scare him off
Haha..nvm, I still love her anyway, despite our ups and downs
Had a great dinner at thai xpress yesterday with kaetna folks
Was really spoilt for choices
All the things on the menu looked really yummy
Farewell dinner for kelvin and merr who were going USA for 3mths to work
Lucky ppl,I want to go usa too, I want to go visit the Big Apple
I wanna go Europe-Paris, amsterdam,edinburgh, rome.....etc
I love London though I have only been there once and was too young to appreciate it
Oops, I really shd stop this rambling and this dreaming
And get back to studying